I pulled out my heart and I feel like passing out
I pulled out my heart and I feel like passing out
I did something that I really wish I didn't.
I broke up with Sara. The girl who I love. I love her but I broke up with her?
What am I on? I feel like shit.
Whats my reasons. The fact that I feel like whatever I do I am wrong.
I wake up go to work, Get out of work take a shower.. Mom ask me to do something and I say well let me tell Sara. I call up Sara she gets mad about it.
Or the Fact that I say "Hey lets eat at my house" Then I am meant with "I want to eat at home" or something that makes me feel like shit.
So we go to her house and there isn't anything to eat.
I am an asshole. I am heartless.. I am heartless because tonight I pulled it out when I broke up with Sara.
Whatever I wanted to do she got mad if it wasn't cool for her. I did things I didn't want to do for her.
I know she didn't like wrestling. It hurt me hearing her saying how she thinks none in wrestling liked me.
Really hurt my feelings.
One of my friends told me they knewn I was mess up when I took time for the main thing in my life that Keeps me going wrestling.. I know big deal.
If I got called into work because there was none else to get called in.. and I am meet with crying like I was breaking up with her.. They had an old lady that just lost her husband and I was on call..
She was having heart problems..
She gave up stepping a WEEKEND at her grandma's for me.. I am sorry.. But I gave up so much for you Sara and I never throw it in your face.
I step so much money on you because I love you.
I still love you.
I feel like a cold heart person for breaking up with you.
I will say it.. SARA WAS MY FIRST! I didn't want to lose it till I fond the one. I broke down when I got home and cryed to my dad about it..
He told me to let the weekend go and think things out..
I want to be with her... But I don't want to go back to how we were.
I was getting to the point where if any of my friends know me.. If I get to the point where I feel piss off about something I will snap at anything that really I shouldn't
I felt bad that she thinks its someone else or anything.. Its not that I just am to the point where I am scard... Scard of what? I don't know... Scard of causing Sara not doing work for her college and she can't do what she has plan in her life..
Scard that just like all things I love it will be taken away from me..
Now I am scard I just throw away everthing I have.. I feel numb where my heart is.. I haven't stop crying since I came home.. I don't know what to do..
yeah it felt like it was all about her on lot of stuff.. But I know I can be a self center person...
so I don't know..
I will adment I am sick of hearing shit aobut how when my mom calls to just see how i am doing because I am never home... Hey at less she calls to see how I am doing.. I was shock on how when my parents like her they were asking me how I felt.
I don't know what to do.. I was to go to her house with a cd player and play bo bice..
I don't know what is wrong with me..
someone?
I did something that I really wish I didn't.
I broke up with Sara. The girl who I love. I love her but I broke up with her?
What am I on? I feel like shit.
Whats my reasons. The fact that I feel like whatever I do I am wrong.
I wake up go to work, Get out of work take a shower.. Mom ask me to do something and I say well let me tell Sara. I call up Sara she gets mad about it.
Or the Fact that I say "Hey lets eat at my house" Then I am meant with "I want to eat at home" or something that makes me feel like shit.
So we go to her house and there isn't anything to eat.
I am an asshole. I am heartless.. I am heartless because tonight I pulled it out when I broke up with Sara.
Whatever I wanted to do she got mad if it wasn't cool for her. I did things I didn't want to do for her.
I know she didn't like wrestling. It hurt me hearing her saying how she thinks none in wrestling liked me.
Really hurt my feelings.
One of my friends told me they knewn I was mess up when I took time for the main thing in my life that Keeps me going wrestling.. I know big deal.
If I got called into work because there was none else to get called in.. and I am meet with crying like I was breaking up with her.. They had an old lady that just lost her husband and I was on call..
She was having heart problems..
She gave up stepping a WEEKEND at her grandma's for me.. I am sorry.. But I gave up so much for you Sara and I never throw it in your face.
I step so much money on you because I love you.
I still love you.
I feel like a cold heart person for breaking up with you.
I will say it.. SARA WAS MY FIRST! I didn't want to lose it till I fond the one. I broke down when I got home and cryed to my dad about it..
He told me to let the weekend go and think things out..
I want to be with her... But I don't want to go back to how we were.
I was getting to the point where if any of my friends know me.. If I get to the point where I feel piss off about something I will snap at anything that really I shouldn't
I felt bad that she thinks its someone else or anything.. Its not that I just am to the point where I am scard... Scard of what? I don't know... Scard of causing Sara not doing work for her college and she can't do what she has plan in her life..
Scard that just like all things I love it will be taken away from me..
Now I am scard I just throw away everthing I have.. I feel numb where my heart is.. I haven't stop crying since I came home.. I don't know what to do..
yeah it felt like it was all about her on lot of stuff.. But I know I can be a self center person...
so I don't know..
I will adment I am sick of hearing shit aobut how when my mom calls to just see how i am doing because I am never home... Hey at less she calls to see how I am doing.. I was shock on how when my parents like her they were asking me how I felt.
I don't know what to do.. I was to go to her house with a cd player and play bo bice..
I don't know what is wrong with me..
someone?