Almost Time For Fatherhood
Less than two months left before my life changes once again to something wonderful. Knowing im having a baby girl has definatly made me realize how much of a protective person i am. I guess its my nature not just to my friends to be like that, but now even more so with someone of my own flesh and blood. Mel is excited, and i can't wait to enjoy the thrills of babyhood (well im sure we will be like omg no sleep and i wish i could see my friends but i have to watch the baby yatta yatta) but in time, things will get back to a regular routine and ill see them all once again.
I miss my boy nelson now and then , whenever i had things to talk about in the past man wise he was the man to do it for me. I guess i miss those times when i could talk to him about stuff i could never talk to any of my female friends. Not saying there are any problems, things r awesome but still to have that cushion ya know what i mean? I dunno, i want another guy friend to talk to and theres no one around.
Paula has been seeing her new bf and they seem happy and pretty much taking all her time and im happy for her. She and i have had our talks about him (both good and bad) and i miss her, i mean like i know melissa is pregnant and both she and i have been sick and now that the end of the pregnancy is here, she needs me even more here but it prevents me from trying to see her and my other friends. Don't get me wrong, i still get to see Mary and Meaghan due to our time schedules working out but with her its just so hard to do it. Im pretty sure come her birthday and mine will be definate chill times but it will be so hard to do it otherwise.
Speaking of the other two, i can say 2011 definately strenghtened my friendship with both of them, but it such different ways. Mary is like destined to be my best friend forever at this rate, even thou she knows me and mel want her lol. But still its gone beyond that right now and we both love it, if only i could have more wives or girlfriends hahaha =p j/k! mary love ya man, ur awesome!
As for Meaghan, this has been an unexpected friendship that developed out of nothing that im so happy happened. Nearly, no, all my friends who know me would be like "what do u see in her at all? Shes not ur type of person to actually get to know! (unless she was a target for me and mel =p) but she is more like, the PG 13 woman out of all my nc17-women i know around and to lower my thinking like that was hard , but at the same time she learned alot of stuff about life, men, and the what nots of relationships and i helped her understand more about herself i think more than anything else, and i felt real good to do that. Maybe i did it because i have to learn to be more father like to my baby girl? Like i dunno for sure but she definately served a purpose to my life in the past year and a half. As i type this she is banging some dude (i think lol) that i helped her figure out so i guess score one for her!
Whats going to happen to me when my baby is born, u know i really dont know and a tiny part of me is scared about it. What am i scared about? because i dont know. i always know and thats why i dont worry, but i dont know about this. Guess theres only one way to find out!
Well journal, next time i talk to you, i will be a father! See ya then!
I miss my boy nelson now and then , whenever i had things to talk about in the past man wise he was the man to do it for me. I guess i miss those times when i could talk to him about stuff i could never talk to any of my female friends. Not saying there are any problems, things r awesome but still to have that cushion ya know what i mean? I dunno, i want another guy friend to talk to and theres no one around.
Paula has been seeing her new bf and they seem happy and pretty much taking all her time and im happy for her. She and i have had our talks about him (both good and bad) and i miss her, i mean like i know melissa is pregnant and both she and i have been sick and now that the end of the pregnancy is here, she needs me even more here but it prevents me from trying to see her and my other friends. Don't get me wrong, i still get to see Mary and Meaghan due to our time schedules working out but with her its just so hard to do it. Im pretty sure come her birthday and mine will be definate chill times but it will be so hard to do it otherwise.
Speaking of the other two, i can say 2011 definately strenghtened my friendship with both of them, but it such different ways. Mary is like destined to be my best friend forever at this rate, even thou she knows me and mel want her lol. But still its gone beyond that right now and we both love it, if only i could have more wives or girlfriends hahaha =p j/k! mary love ya man, ur awesome!
As for Meaghan, this has been an unexpected friendship that developed out of nothing that im so happy happened. Nearly, no, all my friends who know me would be like "what do u see in her at all? Shes not ur type of person to actually get to know! (unless she was a target for me and mel =p) but she is more like, the PG 13 woman out of all my nc17-women i know around and to lower my thinking like that was hard , but at the same time she learned alot of stuff about life, men, and the what nots of relationships and i helped her understand more about herself i think more than anything else, and i felt real good to do that. Maybe i did it because i have to learn to be more father like to my baby girl? Like i dunno for sure but she definately served a purpose to my life in the past year and a half. As i type this she is banging some dude (i think lol) that i helped her figure out so i guess score one for her!
Whats going to happen to me when my baby is born, u know i really dont know and a tiny part of me is scared about it. What am i scared about? because i dont know. i always know and thats why i dont worry, but i dont know about this. Guess theres only one way to find out!
Well journal, next time i talk to you, i will be a father! See ya then!