This one goes out to you....
"Dont look too hard for what you want cause it could be on the tip of your tounge." - New Found Glory
Well first off.....I want to say that Emily Lowell ( the most amazing girl ever) has helped me in no way I thought possible. We got to talking and we both kinda noticed something was wrong with how our lives were going right now. We both feel like weve kinda been on the outs with everyone we used to be close with and just kinda forgotten I guess you could say. Now were promising not to do that to each other cause its not right. Then we moved into my problems and if you have been reading my journal as I update. I have a big one. With one person. I was sitting here just thinking about it over and over with nothing new coming into my head before I imed Emily. I planned on sitting here all night sulking with the lights off and go to bed early.
Emily Lowell enlightened me. She did something I didnt think was possible. She gave me the answers that I knew were true but my mind was too clouded with love and pain and whatever else emotion was boiling in there. And I told her everything. Everything I felt. Everything I planned. Everything I thought. Everything that happened up until the last minute. And she took it all in and spit something out at me that made me go, " You know what, you are exactly right. Why couldnt I see this before?" It was so plainas day light. It was right in front of my face and I was just to stupid and dumbfounded to notice it. I'm laughing at myself right now for it.
Advice to anyone who has a huge problem and just cant seem to go around it, ask Emily Lowell for help. And if shes busy ask someone who you think may know exactly how you feel or have felt at one point. And tell them everything. Vent. Scream. Just know that you can make it around it and there are people who care to help. Nothings useless. I figured I was stuck between a rock and a hard place, but now I know exactly what to do. How to do it. And where its all going to lead.
For the past 2 hours I feel like a whole new person. Ive been sitting here. Iming everyone on my buddy list. People who I havent talked to in months. Just to say " Hey, how the hell you been?" and just get back in touch with something new. I was letting this other shit just take me over. Not cool. All because of you.
I think Lin saw it best. I pretty much just said hey and asked how school was and she goes....
Why are you so happy?
I laughed and said....How do you know?
I can just tell she said.
Finally. Not to say that this one problem is that much of a burden on me but it feelsso amazing to get the answers I needed and get this weight off my chest. I know what I need to do now. So Ill say thanks to Emily again. Thank you. And leave you guys with some laughter.
Oh and thanks to you.....cause now I've learned my lesson. Will you learn one too?
Heres some humor of me and Js going
moviedorkdawson: dude i have a hot nurse
JMastaJStarino: haha
JMastaJStarino: i bet u do
moviedorkdawson: haha
moviedorkdawson: i love it
moviedorkdawson: i already hit on her
JMastaJStarino: hahahahaha
JMastaJStarino: finger her ass
JMastaJStarino: !
moviedorkdawson: shes like oh ive never had you before and i was like...: how long you been here? come around here often?
JMastaJStarino: hahahahaha
moviedorkdawson: haha
JMastaJStarino: /wats ur number
moviedorkdawson: it was great
moviedorkdawson: nono
moviedorkdawson: hey baby whats yourpager?
moviedorkdawson: wanna check for my heartbeat....cause its about to pound out of my chest looking at you
JMastaJStarino: hahahahah
JMastaJStarino: i have a boner, can u look at it
JMastaJStarino: ?
moviedorkdawson: haha
moviedorkdawson: hahahahahahahahaha
moviedorkdawson: oh man
moviedorkdawson: lol
moviedorkdawson: and i never lol
moviedorkdawson: you know that
moviedorkdawson: im still laughing
JMastaJStarino: haha never wat
JMastaJStarino: ooo
JMastaJStarino: LOL
moviedorkdawson: i never say lol
JMastaJStarino: hahaha
JMastaJStarino: i can picture u saying that
JMastaJStarino: sitting in ur bed
JMastaJStarino: with a stupid grin on
JMastaJStarino: hahahahaha
moviedorkdawson: hahaha
moviedorkdawson: i will too
moviedorkdawson: ill be like.... is it normallu supposed to be this big?
JMastaJStarino: hahaha
JMastaJStarino: be like, i think im sick...can u feel my nuts?
moviedorkdawson: you need to take my temp....with your vagina
JMastaJStarino: hahahahahahaha
JMastaJStarino: i thought u were going gay with that one
moviedorkdawson: haha
moviedorkdawson: no
JMastaJStarino: u need to take my temp, in my ass
JMastaJStarino: SHOVE THE THERMOMETER IN MY ASSHOLE
JMastaJStarino: O GOD
moviedorkdawson: you look sick....need to lay in my bed?
JMastaJStarino: u might as well flat out be like
JMastaJStarino: im horny and ive been in this room for over a week, please let me see some tits
moviedorkdawson: hahahahaha
JMastaJStarino: i wont tell anyone!:-X
moviedorkdawson: ill make a sign on my door.....contact precautions...all hot nurses must not wear shirt
moviedorkdawson: oh no shes late for my med i think ill spank her
JMastaJStarino: lol
with pickup lines to use on my hot nurse.
!.Tobias.!