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Do you ever wonder where it is you went wrong?
I think I can pinpoint a day in my life where I made a mistake that has affected everything up until this point.
The day that me and Justin started to hang out is the day I gained a best friend, along with others, but lost my place with pretty much all the northbridge people i was friends with. I dont regret it at all but I know thats why. I still remember when everyone insulted Dean and claimed behind his back that he thought he was to good or too cool for his Northbridge friends. It was never that with him and never that with me.
I notice this...maybe 3 years or so later. When Im home now with a week and a half left for break and I have no one to hang out with. I feel like I have only 5 friends. Justin. Ben. Geoff. Matt. And Dan. 3 of which I just became good buddies with. You dont understand how much I dont want to be here. How much I hate being like this. Theres people who I consider close friends, who I could go out and have an awesome time with like no other, but then I wont hear from them for a week or more. Does that make them close? I wouldnt say so. It makes them fairweather friends.
Im not gonna say I am because maybe Im not, but I think Im a good friend. I dont shun away people for no reason. Yeah, I am lazy when it comes to calling someone and being like "hey whats going on?" but I put my efforts in. It all turns out unsuccessful.
maybe thats what my life will be in the end...... unsccuessful and friendless.
Fuck. I dont wanna be here.
I think I can pinpoint a day in my life where I made a mistake that has affected everything up until this point.
The day that me and Justin started to hang out is the day I gained a best friend, along with others, but lost my place with pretty much all the northbridge people i was friends with. I dont regret it at all but I know thats why. I still remember when everyone insulted Dean and claimed behind his back that he thought he was to good or too cool for his Northbridge friends. It was never that with him and never that with me.
I notice this...maybe 3 years or so later. When Im home now with a week and a half left for break and I have no one to hang out with. I feel like I have only 5 friends. Justin. Ben. Geoff. Matt. And Dan. 3 of which I just became good buddies with. You dont understand how much I dont want to be here. How much I hate being like this. Theres people who I consider close friends, who I could go out and have an awesome time with like no other, but then I wont hear from them for a week or more. Does that make them close? I wouldnt say so. It makes them fairweather friends.
Im not gonna say I am because maybe Im not, but I think Im a good friend. I dont shun away people for no reason. Yeah, I am lazy when it comes to calling someone and being like "hey whats going on?" but I put my efforts in. It all turns out unsuccessful.
maybe thats what my life will be in the end...... unsccuessful and friendless.
Fuck. I dont wanna be here.