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For three days (possibly longer) my thoughts have been occupied mainly with one idea: what would it feel like to punch my hand through a window?
Questions formed from this idea:
a) Would it hurt?
b) Would there be blood? How much? Where?
c) How do I hide such an experiment?
d) Can I work with my hand in ribbons?
Lately I've been feeling so frustrated that all I want to do is scream. But my problem is, I can't scream. I'll be at home by myself and try, but there's just something stopping it. So I feel like sh*t inside, but I won't say anything. It's not like before, when I was so obvious that even I had to pity myself.
Now, I just hate myself.
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Oh, but we had so much fun at recess! *whispers* Yesterday, in Physics, Jimmy told Dane that "ever since I broke up with him (Jimmy) I ave apparently turned him (Jimmy again) gay."
Well, when Dane told me I killed myself laughing, then told Anne, and somehow it went everywhere. I was talking to Grant about it on the bus home yesterday afternoon, and he asked about it in Software this morning, and Gavin and Dane and DJ and I spent all morning taking the mickey out of Jimmy so badly. He is very confused as he now says he only meant it as a joke.
Fairly silly sort of joke to make, if you ask me. Sounds almost offensive, but I can't work out who to.
Speaking of, Joelie, if you ever read this, (which you probably won't because you're never online anymore) there's someone I'd like you to meet.
Questions formed from this idea:
a) Would it hurt?
b) Would there be blood? How much? Where?
c) How do I hide such an experiment?
d) Can I work with my hand in ribbons?
Lately I've been feeling so frustrated that all I want to do is scream. But my problem is, I can't scream. I'll be at home by myself and try, but there's just something stopping it. So I feel like sh*t inside, but I won't say anything. It's not like before, when I was so obvious that even I had to pity myself.
Now, I just hate myself.
_____________________
Oh, but we had so much fun at recess! *whispers* Yesterday, in Physics, Jimmy told Dane that "ever since I broke up with him (Jimmy) I ave apparently turned him (Jimmy again) gay."
Well, when Dane told me I killed myself laughing, then told Anne, and somehow it went everywhere. I was talking to Grant about it on the bus home yesterday afternoon, and he asked about it in Software this morning, and Gavin and Dane and DJ and I spent all morning taking the mickey out of Jimmy so badly. He is very confused as he now says he only meant it as a joke.
Fairly silly sort of joke to make, if you ask me. Sounds almost offensive, but I can't work out who to.
Speaking of, Joelie, if you ever read this, (which you probably won't because you're never online anymore) there's someone I'd like you to meet.