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it's been a really really long, rough two days.
i think i've spent the vast majority of them crying. i have a lot of trouble eating, and a lot of trouble sleeping.
i didn't beg the second time around, i really tried to be a pillar of strength but it's hard. i know that my eyes look pretty when i cry, i've seen enough of them lately, but i still appreciate it when you say it.
i miss you.
i wanted to call you so badly tonight, but i need at least 24 hours. it was my rule after all.
if i can just make it through this drive home, this next hour, this shift, this night. i just keep telling my self that everything's going to be alright but i'm still scared.
so i have a pill to help me sleep and woody brought me a slushie.
if i can just make it through this night.
i still love you.
i think i've spent the vast majority of them crying. i have a lot of trouble eating, and a lot of trouble sleeping.
i didn't beg the second time around, i really tried to be a pillar of strength but it's hard. i know that my eyes look pretty when i cry, i've seen enough of them lately, but i still appreciate it when you say it.
i miss you.
i wanted to call you so badly tonight, but i need at least 24 hours. it was my rule after all.
if i can just make it through this drive home, this next hour, this shift, this night. i just keep telling my self that everything's going to be alright but i'm still scared.
so i have a pill to help me sleep and woody brought me a slushie.
if i can just make it through this night.
i still love you.