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the most adverse effect this life has had on me is nullification. organizing my mind at this point seems absurd. trying to sort the ends out, put things where they belong. i am starting to be able to remember. slowly. the situation wont change, so........ why fight. i fight no more. winning is not an option. the most there can be is a monument to a truly stubborn nature that used to be. doesnt know when its dead or when to quit. just another failed connect. its ok. its not, but it is. its all ok. wont remember a thing in 100 years. wont remember a damn thing.