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i've been absolutely ill in many ways since last thursday, and even though i'm pretty much out of the teeth-woods, i'm sick again and again and again. i have so much to do, losing a week of my life so close to move-in, but i'm not stressin'. the worst will actually be cleaning this mess of a room, and convincing my mother to buy me duplicates of cosmetics and etc, because ideally i would never have to pack to come home. but i'll look for a travel case that i like enough to carry around, and maybe i'll satisfy myself. i'm waiting for my sleep meds to kick in, because i rely on them, even though i should be sick enough to sleep alone. my vicodine and 800mg advil aren't doing the trick any more. they never did, really, but now it hurts pretty much the same with or without drugs. i can't take a break though, because any pain i feel without medication i just think about how i could be doing something (however ineffective) to stop it. my eating habits are so screwed, and i'm ping-ponging between not eating anything and getting sick from it and eating miserably and getting sick from it. i'm just sick. and i have to make lists, and write, and pack, and organize, and fix/try to get my money back from a half.com seller for never receiving a book, that i should have taken care of sooner. i feel like i will just loose my 20 bucks. i could get tired writing this, or writing something else, really, but i feel like when i'm sick, i should be doing silly things. like watching Anthony Bourdain instead of updating, which i am not ashamed of, because i like No Reservations sick or well, but still, it's more mindless than typing or watching Weeds. because i'm drowsy and not paying attention, i think i should watch shit, like New In Town, which was mindless, as intended, but also horrible. and i watched it twice because i bought it on payperview and my father thought it HILARIOUS AND AWESOME and had to watch it. fyi, it's evidentally exactly an accurate portrayal of that boss/vs employee management/vs factory, new in town situation. i'm ill. and a bit less dependent on this internet, thing. goodnight.