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Mmmm. I've been trying to decrease on the anger I let happen. But I keep getting little bouts of anger that exist for a few seconds.
But I can still feel it building quietly in me. I need an anger release. I need to find somewhere to get mad where I can really just.. let it all out till I'm exhausted.
Like a long awaited orgasm. Or the stabbing pain after waiting an hour to get pierced.
I'm at my boyfriend Erich's house.
He left at 7 in the AM and left me here to sleep all day. I woke up at 12.
I don't know how much longer I'm going to wait here.
I haven't eatten anything significant in.. 3 days. I've been losing a lot of weight. Maybe not a lot. But I've been working out since X-mas with no avail, and now I can feel and see a difference.
So can my boyfriend. I finally turn him on. Which kind of sucks. I'm used to dating boys who like me skinny and meaty.
I feel really weird being here without him.
I think I'm going to leave and go do some weird stuff.
I'm tired of being told that I sound too young.. and then hearing everybody else say I sound so mature. WTF?
I'm tired of sarcasm.
But I can still feel it building quietly in me. I need an anger release. I need to find somewhere to get mad where I can really just.. let it all out till I'm exhausted.
Like a long awaited orgasm. Or the stabbing pain after waiting an hour to get pierced.
I'm at my boyfriend Erich's house.
He left at 7 in the AM and left me here to sleep all day. I woke up at 12.
I don't know how much longer I'm going to wait here.
I haven't eatten anything significant in.. 3 days. I've been losing a lot of weight. Maybe not a lot. But I've been working out since X-mas with no avail, and now I can feel and see a difference.
So can my boyfriend. I finally turn him on. Which kind of sucks. I'm used to dating boys who like me skinny and meaty.
I feel really weird being here without him.
I think I'm going to leave and go do some weird stuff.
I'm tired of being told that I sound too young.. and then hearing everybody else say I sound so mature. WTF?
I'm tired of sarcasm.