I'm back. Or something.
For whatever reason (minor lapse in sanity) I've decided to come back to livejournal. I'm not particularly sure if any of my old buddies are still around.. but if so drop a note and I hope you're doing well. :] I haven't truly made an update all of 2008.. So I'll give a brief run-down starting from my 17th birthday.
November 2007
- First time in IP for depression.
- Still with Kristian James Dawkins. Approaching 1 year.
- Skipping school a lot / avoiding thoughts about college altogether.
- Weight around 110lbs
December 2007
- Still skipping school a lot.
- First out-patient hospitalization.
- Broke up with Kristian and didn't go to Wales with him& his family.
- Uber depression..
- Maplestory@@@@
- Befriended Martin.
January 2008
- Started off with more depression..
- More skipping school..
- More Maplestory & interweb relationships.
- IP
February 2008
- OP o_o
- Started home school.
- Maplestory
- Recovering.
-skip to April-
April 2008
- Met Jerry Gonzales. Thought he was the love of my life.
- More Maplestory.
- Depression / Mood swings come and go... more frequently over time.
- Started hanging out a lot more with Sarah. Partying, shows, driving aimlessly etc.
May, June, July Same as April.
All this time my weight fluctuated in the 11X~12X
August 2008
- Went to St. Maarten boy was that eventful.
- Passed out on the beach. Couldn't hold myself up to walk to the car due to dehydration. Extremely embarassing.
- Fasting with out losing weight?
- Stabbed myself in front of my mom and brother.
- Watched too much CSI.
September 2008
- On the 9th I dumped Jerry for a 13 year old named Martin.
- Met Andy and quickly became best friends.
October 2008
- Broke up with Martin because he was extremely suicidal and it triggered me. He will probably always have a large chunk of my heart.
- 27th Andy and I took our relationship to the next step. It was nice for once having someone who made me freaking happy. We were pretty good for a while until..
- Jordan and I got close again.
November 2008
- Pressure from mom about school / work... or rather a lack of such.
- Depression.
- A lovely private server MapleTales :]
- I turned 18. We can just call it 12 though so I don't start crying.
December 2008
- Somehow between Oct. 27th and now, Andy and I stopped talking. Completely.
- Still depressed. Still procrastinating about school.
- Went out a couple times with Sarah and Deanna. I love them sort of.
- Probably dated 4 guys for 2 days each if that o.o
- December 17th Brian asked me out. He's 14. But ilh anyway.
- Christmas Eve talked to Andy and Martin for the first time in about 2 months.
- Shit happens......... blah blah blah
January 2009
- Depressed.
- Grounded; My computer taken away.
- Andy wanted me back but I wasn't ready I guess and now we're kind of talking, kind of not talking... I don't know what the fuck that's about.
- Ready to make this year fucking different than last year.
- Grew a new appreciation and fondness for Jordan. :]
I still have to finish a few essays by.. today. Deadline is tomorrow so yeah. Anywho I've set a few goals.
- Get back to 85lbs and maintain it. :]
- Go to college! Away from evil NJ and my mom and blah.
- Less cutting. T_T
- Finish reading Breaking Dawn to Jordan on the phone.
- Learn to be less (or more slutty) with Jordan's help.
- Quit Maplestory... I really want to but I don't know how to.
- Get a yob. AKA job. I'm broke.