.............life
You know, I wonder what the hell it takes to get one thing.....love. Patiently I wait, and I get hurt, one right after the other. Life hurts, not really sure why I keep on trying these days lately, only goal I have it May 20th. I live alone, and cold, an empty. Sometimes it seems as though even my close friends don't want me around.
Thanksgiving came around, no one, nothing. My birthday, nothing. I have a friend here on LJ that wishes EVERYONE a happy birthday in their blog, except me, 3 years now, nothing. Christmas, I'll be alone again. Am I doing something wrong? I am loving, I try to help, and to be a friend as much as possible, all I get is ignored or treated like it's a HUGE chore to even be nice to me at all.
Maybe it's just time to go away, why bother anymore. Lately people have been treating me really crappy, as if I'm not only an after though, and also as if I'm to be kicked and belittled, ignored, treated as if I'm scum.
I guess it doesn't help that this is the worst time of the year for me thanks to.......yeah.....never mind.
May 20th, and maybe I'll make myself free, in my own way, I don't know. being totally alone hurts so much. *sigh*
sorry, I'll try not to post anything depressing next time. Bye
Edward
Thanksgiving came around, no one, nothing. My birthday, nothing. I have a friend here on LJ that wishes EVERYONE a happy birthday in their blog, except me, 3 years now, nothing. Christmas, I'll be alone again. Am I doing something wrong? I am loving, I try to help, and to be a friend as much as possible, all I get is ignored or treated like it's a HUGE chore to even be nice to me at all.
Maybe it's just time to go away, why bother anymore. Lately people have been treating me really crappy, as if I'm not only an after though, and also as if I'm to be kicked and belittled, ignored, treated as if I'm scum.
I guess it doesn't help that this is the worst time of the year for me thanks to.......yeah.....never mind.
May 20th, and maybe I'll make myself free, in my own way, I don't know. being totally alone hurts so much. *sigh*
sorry, I'll try not to post anything depressing next time. Bye
Edward