it's A ok
that was sad.
thanks megan for being awesome and buying me 2 waffles and eggs at waffle house and listening to me and understanding and making me laugh and letting me listen to Iron and Wine in the car. i love you so much.
thanks for the money everyone gave. it finally added up and i bought myself a "these arms are snakes" shirt. im pleased.
most of all,
thankyou Jesus Christ for holding me and listening to me even though i was just plain pitiful and crying over my love-from-people-lust problem. thankyou so much for calming me down and letting me know that You're Creator over every thing and you love me more than my little mind could ever comprehend. and for showing me some things this weekend and finally beating it into my brain so now i KNOW what i have to do! thankyou for loving me. I'm sorry for being an emotional wreck all weekend. I should be happy and rejoicing that I am alive and breathing and that there is people like champ, megan, mallory, sam, & my parents in the world. but in the Bible you say there is a time for mourning and a time for rejoicing. I think it's pretty much ok though to be upset tonight. you understand. and that's why i love you so much. you know the depths of my heart and what i'm really talking about on this dumb drug live journal. I'm happy to be 15 years of age. Im getting older and it's scary but I'm also excited because I'm ready and eager to start living out my one purpose in life! Bringing glory to Your name, making your name renown, and sharing your love with every single person i cross paths with. golly, i love you so much. you really helped tonight. thanks for giving the band, Bleach (christian band not japanese girls thrash metal), those amazzzing words to sing and the perfect melody to get me through tonight. thanks for cool hand luke. and thanks for mewithoutyou. i could live just listening to them. :) thanks for today. for real. as much as I'm dissapointed about the outcome of the whole entire day, I'm still thankful because of coarse, you let me live another day, but you also showed me numbers of things that I didn't know, and that i DID know i just needed a little reminding.You are an awesome God. i love you. don't ever forget it.
sinner saved by grace,
heather
Dear Heather,
Happy 15th birthday my little girl. I love you so much, and I wish you knew how much I loved you. But this can only be shown in time. I have a great and mighty plan ahead of you in your life. I plan on giving you strength to follow through because it gets really tough somtimes. and I'm also giving you the power to die to yourself and follow me. I'm also giving you a joy you've never known before. I love you. and you're birthday means the world to me. my little princess, you're beautiful! don't ever forget me.
Love Forever ( you know you are),
Jesus Christ
p.s. I have so much more to say, but I'll say it to you when I think you're ready and when it will mean much more to your heart. <3