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I pretty much hated today, and not for any good reason.
Nothing bad happend particularly, but definatly nothing good.
I need to get my act together tho thats for sure. I'm already doing badly in school, i pretty much fail every test handed to me. BBBBUUUUUTTTTT what are you gonna do? My bad, i never study.
I just wake up everyday thanking God that im done with yeasterday, when i used to pray to God that i could go back and enjoy every moment, im hoping the rest of my lifes not like that, i hate the fact that i take it all for granted and that i dread waking up the next day to face reality.
Talking about, researching, and facing the reality of colleges and the future pretty much is the most depressing, stressful thing i can think of. All day all i think about is how long im going to be in school, all the medical classes i need to take, all the tuition i have to pay, and that people often meet their spouces in college and its going to go by so fast and all of a sudden ill be sitting all fat and overly stressed in Kansas with 4 kids and no time for myself! wooooah its wierd, especially when people u have grown up with are getting married. And the fact that most of my friends i have grown up with and it will be SOOO hard when that time comes, so we must make the most of it. But i never just give it all up and realize that whatever happens im in good hands and there is a plan for it, and i just need to realize that if God does provide for even the little birds outside he'll definatly watch over me, and no matter what i do its going to be okay.
But I still wish there really was a never never land. I definatly don't want to grow up.
Nothing bad happend particularly, but definatly nothing good.
I need to get my act together tho thats for sure. I'm already doing badly in school, i pretty much fail every test handed to me. BBBBUUUUUTTTTT what are you gonna do? My bad, i never study.
I just wake up everyday thanking God that im done with yeasterday, when i used to pray to God that i could go back and enjoy every moment, im hoping the rest of my lifes not like that, i hate the fact that i take it all for granted and that i dread waking up the next day to face reality.
Talking about, researching, and facing the reality of colleges and the future pretty much is the most depressing, stressful thing i can think of. All day all i think about is how long im going to be in school, all the medical classes i need to take, all the tuition i have to pay, and that people often meet their spouces in college and its going to go by so fast and all of a sudden ill be sitting all fat and overly stressed in Kansas with 4 kids and no time for myself! wooooah its wierd, especially when people u have grown up with are getting married. And the fact that most of my friends i have grown up with and it will be SOOO hard when that time comes, so we must make the most of it. But i never just give it all up and realize that whatever happens im in good hands and there is a plan for it, and i just need to realize that if God does provide for even the little birds outside he'll definatly watch over me, and no matter what i do its going to be okay.
But I still wish there really was a never never land. I definatly don't want to grow up.