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so like i was trying not to freak out all night cause jesse showed up. and i thought that maybe they were mature like me. and able to accept that shit was fucked up and just approach me on it. So jesse like invites me to his wedding. yah wtf? is that supposed to be some sort of sad ass apology. and then jesse's gf pays this poor girl 20$ to throw fucking water on me so i flipped. anyways then obviuosly everyone goes and gossips about me. the best part is, i fucking love how people have said how fucking good of friends they are to me. and talk shit to me all the time. acting like their tough shit. but when i approach anyone on anything they just stand there, they've got nothing to say. like jesse and his gf. when i was fucking freaking out they just stood there. like they said so much shit to me over the phone and online. called me a cunt and everything. but then when i stand up for myself infrount of everyone in my life. all they do is stand there and blanky stare at me. fucking cunt wipes. they think there so badass but when it comes down to it they dont have shit tp say. i also love how noone stood up for me. i fucking love it its the best part. if my fucking bro was there he would beat that kids face in no doubt. if danielle was there she would have flipped the cunt off if ditch was there even i know she wouldve said something. but its good to kno noone gives a fuck. its nice to be reeasured because i already knew it. and just im not mad at all like it sounds like i am, but for the first time in like the months ive been dealing with all this shit in my life. everyone fucking with me, i felt like they didnt have control over me anymore. im my own person again.