life sucks

[to_kiss_softly]

well....

haha ya ever have one of those days where you just feel like you want to move away or sleep a lot ?

maybe if i were prettier..
more popular
wealthier.
if i lived in a better house
wore better clothes.
had beter friends
had the perfect family and the perfect life
maybe if i was skinnier
if i were samrt funny and attractive
if i werent amelia
maybe if i were worth it
maybe it wouldnt have been like this

i dont know why i care so much but i do and i feel stupid and ugly and subsufficient .... i dont even know how i thought i could have ahad a chance... what was i thinking.. ??? haha.. i have never felt so lame in my life... im sitting on my poor ugly fat not popular ass. writing in a live journal that no one will read about ow sucky my life is.. when i never really had a chance ne ways .. i just fooled my self into thinking i did.. and now i know.. and now i feel pathetic.. and this sucks... idk y i am writing this all. no one cares. or understands because..i sont even understand.. because ther was nothing in the first place... so what is wrong ?

- w.e