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today, I got done taking down all of my friends' memorabilia I had on my walls. I emptied out all my shelves of the random presents my friends have given me along with all my cd's. I thought about leaving it all so I could really start new and not have the stigma that I left people that dont remember me. That's not me though. I keep these things because I do want to remember. I keep these things to remember just so I can. Just in case I may be having a bad day and I could look at all the CO2 cartridges me and kyle used to blow up warm bottles of water, or the hearts that fell from that lovely valentines card I got, or my october rose with its music box that still doesnt work but I love nonetheless, the crayons I used or didnt for letters I wrote to people but never sent, half a set of plastic chopsticks that now I just use to poke at stuff.
Im going to be leaving soon and Ive thought about all the people I said I would see but never didnt. Some people just dont like calling me but I forgive them. Forgiveness is always better than instilling the thoughts of being neglected. Being neglected doesnt settle anything, you're always living in the past with a grudge for something that really doesnt matter. All you can do is move on, or so Im thinking and doing.
to all the people I havent seen or talked to in a while; Im sorry. Not the kind of sorry where my heart is falling to pieces, hoping that things will be the same. They wont. All Im saying is just move on without me like you are, like you should. Hell, you could forget about me. Just as long as one of us holds on to the memory things will be alright for me.
maybe we'll keep in touch, maybe we won't. you'll know where you can reach me in case you ever have the need to reminisce. Ive got all the songs to guide me and all the time to tell you.
Im out.
Im going to be leaving soon and Ive thought about all the people I said I would see but never didnt. Some people just dont like calling me but I forgive them. Forgiveness is always better than instilling the thoughts of being neglected. Being neglected doesnt settle anything, you're always living in the past with a grudge for something that really doesnt matter. All you can do is move on, or so Im thinking and doing.
to all the people I havent seen or talked to in a while; Im sorry. Not the kind of sorry where my heart is falling to pieces, hoping that things will be the same. They wont. All Im saying is just move on without me like you are, like you should. Hell, you could forget about me. Just as long as one of us holds on to the memory things will be alright for me.
maybe we'll keep in touch, maybe we won't. you'll know where you can reach me in case you ever have the need to reminisce. Ive got all the songs to guide me and all the time to tell you.
Im out.