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i'm nervous. i can't sleep. its in 6 days. i'm in winnfield for my little brother's speech contest - which is all good and great, i couldn't have spent all that time studying anyway, could I?
i'll be back in BR thursday night, i'll study then, and then on Friday and Saturday. my life for the past two months has been this stupid test, and i've been pretty unnervous until about 3 days ago. now i'm worried about accuracy percentages and overall percentiles and average LSAT scores and how many people LSU got into this school or that school. blaaaaaah.
i can't sleep, i just lay in bed and which i were studying instead. the problem is, args are pointless after 11 because i'm too tired to concentrate on them. all of it is pointless after 11 actually, i'm too tired to be nitpicky.
i hate having such high standards for myself. i keep trying to tell myself that i'm not a failure if i don't make a 170. but its really hard for me to believe that. because i think i'm capable of a 170, i just don't know if i've put enough time into the test. the last thing i want is to walk out of the test thinking... well i didn't study enough.
that's why i've been so engrossed in my little LSAT books, giving almost every waking moment to them so there is no excuse for whatever my score is. i want to say "i did everything i could, and this is what i earned". if i can just tone down the nervousness a bit. i was pretty nervous before my last diag, because i wanted to show some real improvement. if anyone could have heard my voice inside my head they'd laugh so hard. it was serious pep talk anna "you can do it, its just a test, you'll rock out yeah good job... almost done woohoo" haha it worked, my and my score went up.
i just don't want to be limited to LSU. LSU is great and everything, but i want options.
i also want to go to sleep, i have to drive to monroe tomorrow for little brother's speech contest - which i'm surprised he's asleep - with all the pressure on him. i'm sure its no walk in the park to be competing in a speech contest that your sister won 1st runner up in at Nationals. this is his only chance to win this contest. and he probably feels like he has to live up to what i did - which he could, he's totally capable. amazing delivery - and since the competitors will be mostly girls, he should stand out.
i need something to make me sleepy. glass of wine or 3 would be nice. i'm going to find Boz.
i'll be back in BR thursday night, i'll study then, and then on Friday and Saturday. my life for the past two months has been this stupid test, and i've been pretty unnervous until about 3 days ago. now i'm worried about accuracy percentages and overall percentiles and average LSAT scores and how many people LSU got into this school or that school. blaaaaaah.
i can't sleep, i just lay in bed and which i were studying instead. the problem is, args are pointless after 11 because i'm too tired to concentrate on them. all of it is pointless after 11 actually, i'm too tired to be nitpicky.
i hate having such high standards for myself. i keep trying to tell myself that i'm not a failure if i don't make a 170. but its really hard for me to believe that. because i think i'm capable of a 170, i just don't know if i've put enough time into the test. the last thing i want is to walk out of the test thinking... well i didn't study enough.
that's why i've been so engrossed in my little LSAT books, giving almost every waking moment to them so there is no excuse for whatever my score is. i want to say "i did everything i could, and this is what i earned". if i can just tone down the nervousness a bit. i was pretty nervous before my last diag, because i wanted to show some real improvement. if anyone could have heard my voice inside my head they'd laugh so hard. it was serious pep talk anna "you can do it, its just a test, you'll rock out yeah good job... almost done woohoo" haha it worked, my and my score went up.
i just don't want to be limited to LSU. LSU is great and everything, but i want options.
i also want to go to sleep, i have to drive to monroe tomorrow for little brother's speech contest - which i'm surprised he's asleep - with all the pressure on him. i'm sure its no walk in the park to be competing in a speech contest that your sister won 1st runner up in at Nationals. this is his only chance to win this contest. and he probably feels like he has to live up to what i did - which he could, he's totally capable. amazing delivery - and since the competitors will be mostly girls, he should stand out.
i need something to make me sleepy. glass of wine or 3 would be nice. i'm going to find Boz.