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crimsonXanarchy: cam man i just need some time today
I wish she could explain to me why she does that.
Idk what time means.
I might not talk to her too much.
See how it works.
Last night really upset me.
She calls me crying at 12 and I still wasent asleep, I picked up the phone anyways.
And I end up being hung up on?
Dont get it...
She's upset thats a givin, I just dont understand why she does some stuff she does.
It's really not right.
Oh and in a failing attempt to make herself feel better she lists off some guys she might just go on a few dates with...
My name wasent on that list.
Why did I need to know?
I DIDN'T
I need to let time work, shes right, I just dont know if time is working in our favor.
Cause i've been waiting.
She dident ask me.
And latley I havent done anything wrong.
Or just what she considers wrong atleast.
Havent been "clingy"
Actually the only recolection I have of us was me making her laugh all week.
And the week before that.
She promised me something big about two weeks ago.
"havent you been sorting things out?"
"dident I say that in like... November?"
No... You dident.
Whatev todays bound to be a good one...
hah
I dont know what to feel once again
Im kinda pissed though
Not at her just at everything
im cranky from about 4 hours sleep
and i know i dont deserve a lot of the stupid shit im dealt everyday
But most of all i'm really pissed because I want one week where I can say I've been happy the whole time.
That has yet to happen.
I used to be enough.
People change.
So do there tastes.
I over analyze when im wicked upset
So i'll just stop while im ahead.
Peace