The Horror Cosmic
Today was a nice mild day at school.
It's funny, when its sunny out every one freaks like its some miracle.
It's also pathetic hearing some people sometimes.
"ohhh my gaaawwwdd, It's freeezing out I just want summer so bad, I hate the snow"
And today I hear the same people.
"ooooohhh mmyyy gawwwwwdd, its january and theres no snow! I hate new york"
Well, New York hates you, you dumb ass.
I was chill all day, I try not to let things effect me a lot anymore.
It sorta works...
Kylie and me were sorta okay I was quiet for reason's but I would still pull a laugh out of her.
Then we get like half way through gym and she just does a 180.
Wicked quiet.
She seemed upset or something but I try not to ask her that anymore.
And she pretty much remained that way for the intierty of the school day.
Saw her for the last time at lunch, she was still acting miserable.
Just talking about Matt nothing I dident already hear, it seems like I know first.
Probably cause megan isent around at night only me.
But whatev.
I just went and sat at daves table and went to Mrs. Johnson's to get my books.
Visited with Benny boy that was nice.
He makes me smile.
Uhm went back to lunch... no big stories there... just boring.
So lunch was nearing its end me and ky go to the doors like always shes sorta talking sorta agitated.
We went to her locker walked down the hall and she just kinda walked away to her class.
I dident do anything.
I just kinda looked at her, she half ass looked back and walked on down the hall.
I just kinda said, "Okay, bye"
And kept on walking.
Still nothing to important
I was looking for her after school waiting at her locker sortof ish.
So I wait and call her cell.
It rang like 4 times and just hung up which means she pressed end or ignored it or whatever.
I just dont get why she wont answer the phone sometimes.
It sorta stings, she always has time to answer when Matt calls and always has enough money on her phone to use it in lunch or to call home or something.
When it comes to me she barley ever answers.
Don't feel quite special in those terms.
Whatever over all I try not to care.
Some small stuff just really hurts.
I'm gonna go play drums.
And take Cona for a walk.
I need to see him.
I need to feel good.