Tried
Called cole today.
Tried to see him.
He's in Connecticut.
Ashley is in Las Vegas with her family.
So Cole went to check on his car...
The first time he's been away from Ashley in months, and he goes and checks on his car.
Idk whats going on with him.
It's really hurting me though.
Would'nt he even consider hanging out with me?
We havent seen eachother one on one in a few years...
I guess it does'nt matter, he'll come around when he chooses I cant change people.
I've been trying for so long, its probably the dumbest thing I could ever do.
People dont change unless they feel like it.
Only I would probably change if it hurt someone.
No one else gets me.
Im the philosophiser I guess.
Maybe people are just to cowardice to call someone out.
I know people dont get me too much.
I guess i'd rather be misunderstood though.
I know kylie understands me.
Dont even wanna get into that situation right now.
Its like a slowly expanding crack down my heart.
Its okay though, She'll gauze that shit up.
She always finds a way.
"I miss the times in the streets when we never got tired
Laying down in the grass by the empty camp fire
Like spies on the roof as we'd watch stars expire
But the image, a million years old"