what is true when something dies?

Sep 11, 2004 21:29

hey. today was another long day of work. completely mind numbing, and talking about it only makes me feel lame. so im back at my house, alone. a little bored. last nite i realized that i havent written in my actually journal since march. the things i write in here arent private, but its still something to do with my life.
i feel like Berko's cheating on me with the new drama class. i gotta call that guy. i havent talked to him since like july!
i cant wait to get the fuck out of marin. im just gunna bite the fucking bullet and work till october 15th. i guess now i cant leave for LA till after the 15th cuz kelsey wants to see Bright Eyes play in berkley.
ok i just made up my mind dammit. we leave the 16th of october. thats it. no later than that! we were supposed to be leaving this week!! marin is making me ill. i feel way too confined as i watch my friends venture off to their pre planned destinations. i cant stand the site of this place anymore, or the people. ive have enough!!!!
i think of all the bad shit thats happend to me here. and the good shit only happend when i was fucking someone or on drugs. now i look around and everything appears like and endless walk to the bustop in the rain.
i listened to this song on the bus as a sophmore, and its still just as heartbreaking.
i need to leave!!!!!!!!!!
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