May 17, 2011 00:41
what i'm feeling inside i don't know how much longer i can keep it in
i'm battling these feelings and in an instant i'm flooded with thoughts that are too big for my eyes and hands to coordinate themselves properly enough to create what it is that i need to. its a tough place to be and the problem is that its years . nd years of poor decisions and apprehension that have lead me to this point - and this seems to be my only opportunity to get out of the mess i'm in though - i know its never the only opportunity to change and enhance the piece of my being that i covet the most. what do i really want? i find myself asking that question time and time again - where do i really want to be? not sure really but i know that i'm prepared for whatever it is that may come my way., my delusions of grandeur will now manifest themselves in a way to shed a light onto those parts of me that have be so hidden away over the years. and even though i'm just now beginning to realize and immortalize my past i feel i can use it to my advantage and speak and sing and dance from a more pure place. don't tell me that what i'm doing is wrong i will have none of that malarkey!