Grandmother is dying
So my grandmother is in the hospital. A couple weeks ago she broke her hip, and then was placed in a rehab home so she could learn how to walk again. Overall the rehab home basically neglected her and she ended up having a severe stroke, then slipping into a coma. They told my mom she more than likelly wont make it. She came out of it, when we got there she was awake but out of it. She was responsive and stuff just a little loopy, she keeps talking about how shes going down "that" road and how shes ready because she doesnt want to be a burdin to my mother and sister and I. She told me she wants a violet dress suit with frills up on the chest area. When i was talking to her my mom made sure to stay with me. Jason did also. Finally mom was like okay its time for someone else to come in. So i told her i would be out in a min. So i sat there and talked with her, to tell her i love her and goodbye in a suttle way. I think that was the hardest thing ive ever done in my life.
I feel like im falling back in that hole i fell in when my dad died.
Death freaks me out, especially when i cant say everything i want to say to the person there is just no way.
Though if i end up falling in one of those holes again i dont think i will be able to climb back out again, i dont think ill be able to make it this time.
then to top it all off....last thursday my boyfriend called in so he could go back to the hospital with me and my boss gave him a hard time. Well when you call into work you call one of our agents then they patch you to the boss lady. Well when they patched the call the other sup whom is supposed to be MY coworker, listened in on the call...Which is highly AGAINST the rules. and then she started telling everyone how he is calling out cause my grandma is dying. and how he shouldnt be calling out cause amanda isnt and all this other bullshit about my life and my life with jason and my grandmother. so i called my boss cause 2 of my agents came to me today telling me all of this and i told my boss. my boss said she would take care of it so i e mailed her a reminder letter reminding her to speak with these people and how ive told my boss NUMOROUS times that these people discuss things they shouldnt and that she needs to punish them to some extent or ill make sure something happens.
Now i have people whom are always fucking with me at work, coming up to me snickering at me saying "hows grandma ha" its fucking with me badly. I wanted to kick that bitches ass. Karen M. shes a stupid bitch to all extents.
I hate my job
I told jason to tell his father to just finally release me from his treatment from the car accident so i can get my settlement so i can just fucking quit cause i cant take it anymore.
i hate my life rite now, besides my family and my boyfriend.
Someone Please Save Me
I feel like im falling back in that hole i fell in when my dad died.
Death freaks me out, especially when i cant say everything i want to say to the person there is just no way.
Though if i end up falling in one of those holes again i dont think i will be able to climb back out again, i dont think ill be able to make it this time.
then to top it all off....last thursday my boyfriend called in so he could go back to the hospital with me and my boss gave him a hard time. Well when you call into work you call one of our agents then they patch you to the boss lady. Well when they patched the call the other sup whom is supposed to be MY coworker, listened in on the call...Which is highly AGAINST the rules. and then she started telling everyone how he is calling out cause my grandma is dying. and how he shouldnt be calling out cause amanda isnt and all this other bullshit about my life and my life with jason and my grandmother. so i called my boss cause 2 of my agents came to me today telling me all of this and i told my boss. my boss said she would take care of it so i e mailed her a reminder letter reminding her to speak with these people and how ive told my boss NUMOROUS times that these people discuss things they shouldnt and that she needs to punish them to some extent or ill make sure something happens.
Now i have people whom are always fucking with me at work, coming up to me snickering at me saying "hows grandma ha" its fucking with me badly. I wanted to kick that bitches ass. Karen M. shes a stupid bitch to all extents.
I hate my job
I told jason to tell his father to just finally release me from his treatment from the car accident so i can get my settlement so i can just fucking quit cause i cant take it anymore.
i hate my life rite now, besides my family and my boyfriend.
Someone Please Save Me