Why Can't I...
Suffice to say things steadily got worse after my last post in April. There are reasons you haven't seen me around. Taking care of the terminally ill is a full time job, and when added to a full time job you really hate it makes things that much more draining.
Things are far from better now, but I thought I would post while I had the mind to and let the few of you who know the situation and haven't heard yet know that my grandmother died the day after Christmas. Long and sad and seriously depressing... and unexpected. That was the worst of it.
Things are... weird now. I feel like I've got a child now that it is just my grandfather that I'm caring for. Before it didn't bother me so much to leave the two grandparents alone for a few hours - now it is a panic attack every morning when I leave for work. Grandfather won't allow anyone to come and stay with him while I'm gone and leaving a nearly 86 yo recent widow alone for 9+ hours a day terrifies me.
I can't promise you will see me around anytime soon, but anything is possible I guess.
Things are far from better now, but I thought I would post while I had the mind to and let the few of you who know the situation and haven't heard yet know that my grandmother died the day after Christmas. Long and sad and seriously depressing... and unexpected. That was the worst of it.
Things are... weird now. I feel like I've got a child now that it is just my grandfather that I'm caring for. Before it didn't bother me so much to leave the two grandparents alone for a few hours - now it is a panic attack every morning when I leave for work. Grandfather won't allow anyone to come and stay with him while I'm gone and leaving a nearly 86 yo recent widow alone for 9+ hours a day terrifies me.
I can't promise you will see me around anytime soon, but anything is possible I guess.