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Less than a week left to going home. It feels so unreal. Not the part about going home, but the thing about studying in Japan... 8 months have passed, and it really feels extremely unreal.
My heart is beating so fast.
Yet it feels so calm.
I am confused by the myriad of emotions.
Did I screw my life up by coming here to Japan?
And I realised people don't treat me like how I wish they would. And I guess I will never be as important to them as they are to me. I am just... unimportant and insignificant.
I need a break.
I want to go home.
I realised this is a really bad habit... Escaping from all my problems. I did it once before by coming to Japan. And now I am doing it once more. Rather than feeling disappointed with myself, I find that I am much more amused,
Incoherent now.
Goodnight world, and the curtain falls.
My heart is beating so fast.
Yet it feels so calm.
I am confused by the myriad of emotions.
Did I screw my life up by coming here to Japan?
And I realised people don't treat me like how I wish they would. And I guess I will never be as important to them as they are to me. I am just... unimportant and insignificant.
I need a break.
I want to go home.
I realised this is a really bad habit... Escaping from all my problems. I did it once before by coming to Japan. And now I am doing it once more. Rather than feeling disappointed with myself, I find that I am much more amused,
Incoherent now.
Goodnight world, and the curtain falls.