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You know when you hear stories that make you stop and go, "wait, what? Say again."?
I just heard two in a row. BOTH of which make me as a human being feel a million times better.
Maybe I shouldn't word it that way. I don't live my life as a comparison to others. I don't look at a person I want to be better than for whatever reason and go off to do better simply to spite them so to say it makes me feel better as a person is wrong. I should say it made me realize that these criticisms that have been thrown my way have been these certain people's projections of what they don't like about themselves and THAT makes me feel better. When one sits for uncountable amounts of time trying to figure out what they did so wrong they are relieved when they hear, "oh that isn't you being an asshole that's them trying to pawn their own issues off on you..." even if the voice is your own.
The best part is that the person I heard both of these stories from is not only a trustworthy source but assumed I didn't even know the first person he was talking about. He thought he was telling me a story about a stranger and when I put all the pieces together he was like, "oh shit this isn't a stranger to you at all is it?" VERY far from it and boy do I have one hell of a smile on my face. In true Halloween spirit, I feel like I'm the only one holding a clip of silver bullets in a werewolf fight. FINALLY. And it's refreshing.
I just heard two in a row. BOTH of which make me as a human being feel a million times better.
Maybe I shouldn't word it that way. I don't live my life as a comparison to others. I don't look at a person I want to be better than for whatever reason and go off to do better simply to spite them so to say it makes me feel better as a person is wrong. I should say it made me realize that these criticisms that have been thrown my way have been these certain people's projections of what they don't like about themselves and THAT makes me feel better. When one sits for uncountable amounts of time trying to figure out what they did so wrong they are relieved when they hear, "oh that isn't you being an asshole that's them trying to pawn their own issues off on you..." even if the voice is your own.
The best part is that the person I heard both of these stories from is not only a trustworthy source but assumed I didn't even know the first person he was talking about. He thought he was telling me a story about a stranger and when I put all the pieces together he was like, "oh shit this isn't a stranger to you at all is it?" VERY far from it and boy do I have one hell of a smile on my face. In true Halloween spirit, I feel like I'm the only one holding a clip of silver bullets in a werewolf fight. FINALLY. And it's refreshing.