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With the light hearted air that she walks around with all day, she rested her head on her soft cloud. Thinking of him as always, she just dozed into a great fantasy world of bright lights and soft sounds. Tomorrow would offer hope and opprotunity. Never thinking about death or forgetfulness she just floated away. Getting lost in the wave of her dreams, she just wants it to reach the shore. Somewhere between the darkness and the light her spirit just remains free. Then she heard the alarm clock ring, later realizing the music was her cell phone. His voice just soothes her every nerve and anxiety. The distance is only felt now and again, but the warmth is there always.
Today was pleasant. I handled the lives of others and watched as they gazed upon my old age with innocence. My mom works with children, babies, and I went over to her work and helped her out. It's nice to see how happy kids can be without knowing the pressures of the world or why and when things happen the way they do in our society. Racism doesn't exist and liking someone of the same sex is inconceivable. Then after I had acquired a sense of baby smell, I went over to my work only to be terminated. I am no longer a Farrells girl. I was fired today. Very very unfair and unbelievable, but then again, what things in this world are fair and believable and fun at the same time? Not too many. So I waved my goodbyes and walked out of those red doors for the last time. I'll be back in a couple of months to raise hell and whatnot, but for now I'm going to a SCV job fair on Monday. I'll find a job....and things will be okay, because they always are.
Well, today our family sufferred a great loss. My grandfather passed away in his sleep. It was horrible to see the one man who will always be there for you, cry his eyes out. My dad looked like a little boy who had just gotten his favorite toy taken away. It hurts to know that I can't do anything for him but be there to give him consolation. He went to Barstow to go and finalize the details of his death. The police went and took pictures to make sure it wasn't a homicide and that my family killed him....and then the Corner came and took his body. The next time we see him will be in a casket for his funeral. May his soul be at rest with our maker and creator in the heavens above. I love you, Grandpa.
For now, I'm just happy that I have a family that is always there to back me up in my decisions and problems. No matter what stupid thing I do or amazing wonderous thing I say, I'm always loved in this family. I can step out of my door and be hated, but I know that when I come back to my humble home I will be appreciated for who I am and not for who society wants me to be.
August evenings brings solemn warnings to remember to kiss the one's you LOVE goodnight.
There is no love greater than the one we share.
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And in conclusion I say...
Tonight, sleep tight, my love.