i'm back

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for some very strange reason i had this urge to update this afternoon - yeah hasn't happened in almost six months (if there are entries with in the last six months its b/c someone begged me / yelled at me to update). i don't even know what i wanted to update about, but i had been avoiding lj these past few months for fear that it would just become a place for me to complain, worry, and dive into periods of depression and self-pity (all of which would not help me in the least). But i've been quite content these past few days (knock on wood..oh god i hope i didn't just jinks it!). my classes are going well, and i'm enjoying them - oh side track coming - we got lesson plans handed back today, but she had left my on her dining room table so she told me to stay after class so she could fill me in on how i had done (we had more due today and she had recommended that people hold on to them and revise based on the ones that were handed back. well she takes me out of the room and whispers behind her cupped hand (ok so there were only two people who had really good lesson plans, and you were most definately one of them - they were wonderful, so just pass in the new ones and don't worry about them - i'm sure they're great). i love boosts of confidence from professors!!! she also made me show a video of myself teaching to the class, ugh gah yuck blah...u g l y you ain't got no aliby (sp?)...yeah i couldn't watch - but to my surprise she had not suggestions for imporvement- in her words everything she would have looked for in assessing my instruction was there and was done well (maybe th efact that you could barely see me, and could hear every fifth word helped me out here, but still it felt pretty damn good)
ok so apparently i've turned lj from a bucket into which i dump my sorrows to a poster where i declare the amazingness that is me to the world! (sorry - yeah ... but i don't mean it, eh)
its so wrong that feeling better than someone else makes my day!! i hate it...but at the same time i llllooooovvvvveeee it!!!!!

in other news my options for student teaching over j-term are holyoke, amherst, or south hadley (all in some sort of a pre-k room) and then for the spring its holyoke, north hampton, or possibley south hadley (comments, suggestions welcome)
i'm kinda hoping for holyoke, or amherst for j-term (preferabley amherst) and noho for spring (ooohh just thinking about having students in my class with two mommies makes me soo happy!!)

damn i write alot!