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i'm been in a weird mood this week.
lonely, but i want to be left alone.
so i didn't answer phone calls only an "urgent" one from my parents concerned that i was dead.
and another call that caught me off guard.
i probably pissed a few people off. but who cares, i just didn't want to talk to anyone, ok?
basically everyday of work sucked.
nothing went right.
everything was stressful up until about 4pm today.
at 5pm i clocked out and ran out of 11 penn plaza as fast as i could.
today i found out that rainn wilson is hosting snl on feb. 24.
i am seriously considering camping out for tickets with patrick.
the only thing that would stop me would be the weather. damn the cold!
speaking of patrick...he just informed me that he's considering moving back to nyc from philly.
i can't tell you how happy this makes me.
i need a real friend around me more than i need oxygen.
before my subway boy ever talked to me, i would get so excited to see him and it would make my day.
but now, everyday that he doesn't even glance in my direction i die inside.
it just makes me so upset.
being invisible is getting old and i knew i made a big deal about nothing.
stupid me to think a boy would show any interest.
and i still don't have things all figured out when it comes to you.
you care about me/ you don't care about me...which is it?
aren't these games getting old?
why are you still acting like this?
i've been really really well lately.
it's to the point where you don't hurt me anymore.
you are just memories...
some of the happiest and some of the worst i have.
i never want to go back to the way you made me feel before.
so just stop.
marisa is coming to visit next weekend.
i can't wait for:
-max brenners valentine's date
-little miss sunshine
-the dog park
-angelo's in little italy
-the new hugh grant/drew barrymore movie
-maybe a little shopping
-and tons of relaxing
lonely, but i want to be left alone.
so i didn't answer phone calls only an "urgent" one from my parents concerned that i was dead.
and another call that caught me off guard.
i probably pissed a few people off. but who cares, i just didn't want to talk to anyone, ok?
basically everyday of work sucked.
nothing went right.
everything was stressful up until about 4pm today.
at 5pm i clocked out and ran out of 11 penn plaza as fast as i could.
today i found out that rainn wilson is hosting snl on feb. 24.
i am seriously considering camping out for tickets with patrick.
the only thing that would stop me would be the weather. damn the cold!
speaking of patrick...he just informed me that he's considering moving back to nyc from philly.
i can't tell you how happy this makes me.
i need a real friend around me more than i need oxygen.
before my subway boy ever talked to me, i would get so excited to see him and it would make my day.
but now, everyday that he doesn't even glance in my direction i die inside.
it just makes me so upset.
being invisible is getting old and i knew i made a big deal about nothing.
stupid me to think a boy would show any interest.
and i still don't have things all figured out when it comes to you.
you care about me/ you don't care about me...which is it?
aren't these games getting old?
why are you still acting like this?
i've been really really well lately.
it's to the point where you don't hurt me anymore.
you are just memories...
some of the happiest and some of the worst i have.
i never want to go back to the way you made me feel before.
so just stop.
marisa is coming to visit next weekend.
i can't wait for:
-max brenners valentine's date
-little miss sunshine
-the dog park
-angelo's in little italy
-the new hugh grant/drew barrymore movie
-maybe a little shopping
-and tons of relaxing