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today was unusual if anything, but no matter what, I have a group of people now to jam with that play the stuff I listen to a lot...which equals a lot of fun and a lot of release...
I hate it when people say they are going to try to change, and then they have a huge breakdown and its like finally, they get it...when afterall, they haven't gotten anything at all...
Every feel like kicking a puppy because someone you know complains constantly about a problem that they themselves cause, and no matter how much they know it, they still pretend that it isn't their fault?
All of my frustration is a result of overanalyzation and my failure to be able to control certain aspects of my life, which it seems really drives me crazy...
I have 5 hours of cleaning left to do before Beirut 2005 in my house tomorrow night...awesome...
I made up for time on my quota today, which was excellent...
Do you remember when you thought Santa and the toothfairy and the easter bunny were real? (ok so the easter bunny lost the whole reality thing when I had to wear the mask in 5th grade music class and jump around handing out fake gifts because I was blessed with the same name as that no talent ass clown...)
I only listened to all three Thursday cds 4 times each today cover to cover, so I guess I am backing off a bit..
nope, I'm not...
When is it ok to finally say that you are pretty good in context of where other people are, and damn the other people who don't get it, because they are the ones with the issue not you...I'm always afraid that will give way to arrogancy, which is not something I want to become...
stop worrying about stupid shit already...seriously...who honestly cares if you brush your teeth with the bathroom door open????
one of the worst things you can be is stubborn...
fuck my problems because right now, there is another thing going on in the world that keeps it all in perspective...it is very frightening to think that nature is striking back with her own "immune system" trying to send a message to the parasite we are...I hope we get it before we are next...
welcome to my house, where the doors and windows are broken, the walls are colored black, and the murderers are everywhere...
I hate it when people say they are going to try to change, and then they have a huge breakdown and its like finally, they get it...when afterall, they haven't gotten anything at all...
Every feel like kicking a puppy because someone you know complains constantly about a problem that they themselves cause, and no matter how much they know it, they still pretend that it isn't their fault?
All of my frustration is a result of overanalyzation and my failure to be able to control certain aspects of my life, which it seems really drives me crazy...
I have 5 hours of cleaning left to do before Beirut 2005 in my house tomorrow night...awesome...
I made up for time on my quota today, which was excellent...
Do you remember when you thought Santa and the toothfairy and the easter bunny were real? (ok so the easter bunny lost the whole reality thing when I had to wear the mask in 5th grade music class and jump around handing out fake gifts because I was blessed with the same name as that no talent ass clown...)
I only listened to all three Thursday cds 4 times each today cover to cover, so I guess I am backing off a bit..
nope, I'm not...
When is it ok to finally say that you are pretty good in context of where other people are, and damn the other people who don't get it, because they are the ones with the issue not you...I'm always afraid that will give way to arrogancy, which is not something I want to become...
stop worrying about stupid shit already...seriously...who honestly cares if you brush your teeth with the bathroom door open????
one of the worst things you can be is stubborn...
fuck my problems because right now, there is another thing going on in the world that keeps it all in perspective...it is very frightening to think that nature is striking back with her own "immune system" trying to send a message to the parasite we are...I hope we get it before we are next...
welcome to my house, where the doors and windows are broken, the walls are colored black, and the murderers are everywhere...