it's been a while
after four straight all-nighters, I am trying to make a slow transition back into reality...this is what I have to say about that:
snow is very much my favorite, and also so simply like a dream...it is in some sense the sky falling all around, and it softens even the sharpest of edges in the physical reality that surrounds us...
Today, a woman who watched me grow for 6 years, babysitting me and being a very big part of my life, passed away from cancer at age 46. It is at this point that I am finally aware of how uncontrollable so many things are. It is human nature to fear what we cannot understand, and we cannot understand how we cannot control or master everything we encounter, and that in turn typically makes us afraid of what we don't know (taking into account that what we cannot control are things we don't know much about...in this instance, death).
Don't ever take a second and wish you could stop thinking so deeply about life. I feel very much so alive, even with the emotions I am experiencing right now. To be alive is to have all of the spectrum of thoughts, and in that respect it means to experience the sublimely beautiful in conjunction with what is negative and ultimately desparative. I would choose to live no other way...
It is really difficult to live by what you believe in...and in that sense, not so much am I concerned with faith based guidance, but with personal values (faith itself is individualized, but that is a discussion for another time)...
Don't forget, but don't regret..
metaphor for a missing moment...
thank you for those times when you took a second to do something for someone else...that cycle will eventually come around and work for you when you need it, or so I hope...
everything is supposed to work out, and therein lies the issue...in that it is supposed to...
i've no control on this one...
but I do know that I am due for a miracle...
goodbye, vicki...
snow is very much my favorite, and also so simply like a dream...it is in some sense the sky falling all around, and it softens even the sharpest of edges in the physical reality that surrounds us...
Today, a woman who watched me grow for 6 years, babysitting me and being a very big part of my life, passed away from cancer at age 46. It is at this point that I am finally aware of how uncontrollable so many things are. It is human nature to fear what we cannot understand, and we cannot understand how we cannot control or master everything we encounter, and that in turn typically makes us afraid of what we don't know (taking into account that what we cannot control are things we don't know much about...in this instance, death).
Don't ever take a second and wish you could stop thinking so deeply about life. I feel very much so alive, even with the emotions I am experiencing right now. To be alive is to have all of the spectrum of thoughts, and in that respect it means to experience the sublimely beautiful in conjunction with what is negative and ultimately desparative. I would choose to live no other way...
It is really difficult to live by what you believe in...and in that sense, not so much am I concerned with faith based guidance, but with personal values (faith itself is individualized, but that is a discussion for another time)...
Don't forget, but don't regret..
metaphor for a missing moment...
thank you for those times when you took a second to do something for someone else...that cycle will eventually come around and work for you when you need it, or so I hope...
everything is supposed to work out, and therein lies the issue...in that it is supposed to...
i've no control on this one...
but I do know that I am due for a miracle...
goodbye, vicki...