Awkward Turtle
Okay, I have a friend getting married (I'm not sure of the date, I just know the invite is in the mail) I'm happy for them and I wish them the best of luck. We've been friends since Middle School and even though through the year, we don't see each other as much, we can still BS like old times. It's the Wedding/ reception itself that I'm feeling funny about. I know that there is going to be a particular couple at this wedding, that I have no real desire to talk to.
This particular couple has been together since high school. She was my best friend. And we had good times, until she started dating her husband. Suddenly, she didn't have time to just hang out. As time went on, he purposed to her. Things went well until he destroyed her by breaking their engagement. I was there to pick up the pieces. Much to my surprise, after several months of having my friend back . . . .he was back to. She got the ring on her finger again. They got married and moved away. I spoke maybe two words to her at the reception and never heard from her after they moved. Except of course when they had a baby shower. They moved into town and stopped by the store to show off their new babino. I was busy that day and didn't have time to chat. Part of that was that I didn't want to chat. I feel hurt that they only wanted to include me when it involved a present.
I know that they will be at the wedding. I just don't know if I'll be able to say anything to them. Hell, I'm going to feel so awkward at the wedding anyway that it may not matter. I know what you maybe thinking. . . .Emily awkward? I'm weird enough without adding a dress and the depressing feeling of being alone at a wedding. I am the single friend. Who could have a date to a wedding, but will watch the "date" flirt with someone all night. The single amongst the sea of happy couples. Don't get me wrong. I am very happy for those who have the right person. It doesn't stop my brain from wondering why I'm single.
Ah well. I am happy with how life is. Love comes to those who wait and I am a very patient person. Maybe I'll get a passport and take a trip to Europe. I'll go stalk the Doctor Who set . . .
Well . . . .maybe my brain can stop thinking about it now.