10 Days to go (i copied this from myspace)
9 more days and then i turn the big 1 - 9 ... why is it i always get upset or depressed around my birthday? i know big amount of suffering is suppose 2 bring happiness *talks to god* so when am i gonna get it?... i mean heres the run down:
16th birthday:
my grandfather got really sick... he ended up being in the hospital for 2 months. he was really sick, after a while he got better and i didnt see him since april 4th, then the day before my birthday he was let out and my dad threw me a big surprise party where all my family (moms and dads side) was in one room 2gether after, even after the divorce, even after my grandpa was let out of the hospital he was there, i never cried so hard and never been so touched at the same time... i was glad to have a father like him. he does make my dreams come true.
17th birthday:
i was up in connecticut with my dad for a week. i was studying for SATs up there and had a good time it was really fun. I even started writing a book which was kinda cool. then the minute i get back home i was so depressed that i was with my mom again that i didnt even wanna be there my sister wasnt helping the situation and i was crying every day. a few days later, my mom was driving me 2 my grandmas and she showed me my birthday present and told me she met 2 girls, who will later on change my life for ever and introduce me to ligaly. and i wouldve never gained the friends i have today
18th birthday:
It was my birthday, it was on a wednesday and i drove into my fathers to apply for a loan to go to FDU, it wasnt approved i wasnt gonna be able to go 2 school i was crushed... that saturday i found out my dad got a loan from his job and my friends took me out 2 my very first club, sutra, i had the time of my life.
as i count the days to my 19th birthday, (APRIL 28th for all u who don't know) im going down that same war path, where i ain't happy, im depressed as the days go by... i guess its because the past few weeks have sucked so much that i don't even see where happiness stands at all... oh well i dunno. we'll see what happens.
16th birthday:
my grandfather got really sick... he ended up being in the hospital for 2 months. he was really sick, after a while he got better and i didnt see him since april 4th, then the day before my birthday he was let out and my dad threw me a big surprise party where all my family (moms and dads side) was in one room 2gether after, even after the divorce, even after my grandpa was let out of the hospital he was there, i never cried so hard and never been so touched at the same time... i was glad to have a father like him. he does make my dreams come true.
17th birthday:
i was up in connecticut with my dad for a week. i was studying for SATs up there and had a good time it was really fun. I even started writing a book which was kinda cool. then the minute i get back home i was so depressed that i was with my mom again that i didnt even wanna be there my sister wasnt helping the situation and i was crying every day. a few days later, my mom was driving me 2 my grandmas and she showed me my birthday present and told me she met 2 girls, who will later on change my life for ever and introduce me to ligaly. and i wouldve never gained the friends i have today
18th birthday:
It was my birthday, it was on a wednesday and i drove into my fathers to apply for a loan to go to FDU, it wasnt approved i wasnt gonna be able to go 2 school i was crushed... that saturday i found out my dad got a loan from his job and my friends took me out 2 my very first club, sutra, i had the time of my life.
as i count the days to my 19th birthday, (APRIL 28th for all u who don't know) im going down that same war path, where i ain't happy, im depressed as the days go by... i guess its because the past few weeks have sucked so much that i don't even see where happiness stands at all... oh well i dunno. we'll see what happens.