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as i sit here alone im retracing everything we have had together. every laugh, every kiss, every fight, every tear, every touch, every sound, every movie, every meal, every weekend, every school-day every summer-day, every phone call. it feels like i am holding my heart over a flame melting you out of my life. its so fucking painfull but it has to be done. and tomorrow night, even a week from tonight, even a month, i know i will feel it. each drop less painfull than the last and ill watch them dissapear. until soon i will be me again. the person i was before we met. i will be able to feel love and happiness like i did before you. i have learned that love is a dangerous feeling, and i have learned to never ever pour everything i am into another person again. i know that i need to take it slow and never loose control of my feelings again. i am sorry for everything i have put you through and i am sorry for all the pain that i have caused i NEVER wanted it to be this way and im so sorry that i cant be what you want me to be. good luck heather. i know youll be happier without me. i love you.
