General Catharsis
I've noticed that my mind is increasingly full of plans, ideas, goals, thoughts - in other words, it's just plain full.
I always write about how I miss the cathartic nature of writing a blog or journal, but really time is my enemy, and I never seem to have enough time to write. And, if I do have the time I lack the energy to commit my thoughts to writing.
My head has been spinning in circles lately, trying to figure out the direction of my life. I feel like I'm back in HS looking at colleges for the first time and trying to figure out who I want to be. Sitting here waiting for my LSAT score has me sitting on pins and needles. That simple three digit number represents my chances of defining who I am by a great legal education, and it also has the power to shatter some long-held dreams. But enough about that for now.
In addition to law school, I've been considering (with an increasing degree of seriousness) a joint JD/Ph.D program. I feel myself drawn towards legal academia more than anything, because academia is something I've strived to escape since I was told as a child that I would make a great teacher. With an entire family of educators, I struck out on a path diverse from theirs, but in the end, I can find my place in the world of academia while it is still a place I created. Legal academia would be a first, and it's not that being first has any great importance, but defining me for me and not always in comparison is something that comes with being a 5th child in a family of 6 children.
I would love to pursue an advanced degree (Ph.D) for many reasons, but the primary is interest. In a nutshell, I love studying Europe and reading texts about it. Though I might get a little "Europe" in my legal education, it will be not enough to my taste. The joint program would allow me to continue a journey and fascination that began in the summer of 2002 and take it to the next academic level. This would also help me build more solid credentials as a legal academic and develop a unique specialization that allows me to prove my value to an academic institution to which I might apply.
In the end, these thoughts are whirring around in my head, along with my own self doubt and doubt about many things right now. In so many ways, it helps to see them written in front of me, because it helps me objectively observe that my problems are not half as bad as they seem. Writing as a method of catharsis is adequate, because I can trivialize my own problems and make them into insignificant nothings that no longer plague the recesses of my overworked mind.
*end rant*
I always write about how I miss the cathartic nature of writing a blog or journal, but really time is my enemy, and I never seem to have enough time to write. And, if I do have the time I lack the energy to commit my thoughts to writing.
My head has been spinning in circles lately, trying to figure out the direction of my life. I feel like I'm back in HS looking at colleges for the first time and trying to figure out who I want to be. Sitting here waiting for my LSAT score has me sitting on pins and needles. That simple three digit number represents my chances of defining who I am by a great legal education, and it also has the power to shatter some long-held dreams. But enough about that for now.
In addition to law school, I've been considering (with an increasing degree of seriousness) a joint JD/Ph.D program. I feel myself drawn towards legal academia more than anything, because academia is something I've strived to escape since I was told as a child that I would make a great teacher. With an entire family of educators, I struck out on a path diverse from theirs, but in the end, I can find my place in the world of academia while it is still a place I created. Legal academia would be a first, and it's not that being first has any great importance, but defining me for me and not always in comparison is something that comes with being a 5th child in a family of 6 children.
I would love to pursue an advanced degree (Ph.D) for many reasons, but the primary is interest. In a nutshell, I love studying Europe and reading texts about it. Though I might get a little "Europe" in my legal education, it will be not enough to my taste. The joint program would allow me to continue a journey and fascination that began in the summer of 2002 and take it to the next academic level. This would also help me build more solid credentials as a legal academic and develop a unique specialization that allows me to prove my value to an academic institution to which I might apply.
In the end, these thoughts are whirring around in my head, along with my own self doubt and doubt about many things right now. In so many ways, it helps to see them written in front of me, because it helps me objectively observe that my problems are not half as bad as they seem. Writing as a method of catharsis is adequate, because I can trivialize my own problems and make them into insignificant nothings that no longer plague the recesses of my overworked mind.
*end rant*