The weight of my decisions were impossible to hold...but they were never yours.
I realized afew things today...
1) I was reading Celeste's journal and realized that I miss hanging out with her, Eric, Zack and those kids like last year. I hate how it is now- I'll be walking in the hall, see zack and say hey and he'll point and call me a bitch or laff or kick me or sumthin. Eric is just...eh idk. He used to sniff in my face which really REALLY pissed me off but he stopped that. But its bullshit and makes me really sad...all of us used to be really good friends last year and it seems like they dont even care anymore...idk if thats just distance or if its because I started doing drugs or what. But it hurts that they treat me the way they do- like I'm trash or I'm not worth talking to anymore...it hurts alot.
2) People that I see and talk to everyday talk ALOT of shit. ALOT. Amber you know what I'm talkin about...that pissed me off- damn near ruined my whole day. Then gym came around and topped it off. I fucking hate softball...
3) I've lost alota weight...not trying to sound vain or w/e but it just kinda hit me.
4) I wana leave...I wana get outa here so bad. Fuck school- Fuck family- Fuck friends- Fuck my career- Just leave.
-Alycia
1) I was reading Celeste's journal and realized that I miss hanging out with her, Eric, Zack and those kids like last year. I hate how it is now- I'll be walking in the hall, see zack and say hey and he'll point and call me a bitch or laff or kick me or sumthin. Eric is just...eh idk. He used to sniff in my face which really REALLY pissed me off but he stopped that. But its bullshit and makes me really sad...all of us used to be really good friends last year and it seems like they dont even care anymore...idk if thats just distance or if its because I started doing drugs or what. But it hurts that they treat me the way they do- like I'm trash or I'm not worth talking to anymore...it hurts alot.
2) People that I see and talk to everyday talk ALOT of shit. ALOT. Amber you know what I'm talkin about...that pissed me off- damn near ruined my whole day. Then gym came around and topped it off. I fucking hate softball...
3) I've lost alota weight...not trying to sound vain or w/e but it just kinda hit me.
4) I wana leave...I wana get outa here so bad. Fuck school- Fuck family- Fuck friends- Fuck my career- Just leave.
-Alycia