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When I saw Bonnie act the way she did when we were listening to Sara's radio show, I really began to doubt myself on the kind of person I thought she might be. Then when this situation came up and my friends (you and Sara) expressed animosity to the way she was acting, I began to see how that parallel the way she acted about the Maggie situation. After that I did indeed doubt how I was feeling about her as a person and began to contemplate weather or not she was actually someone I wanted to consider a friend. I was not ready to process that at the time because it was not as important to me as making sure that my friends and lovers were taken care of. Although I may have doubted my friendship towards her, I never acted out of line or out rightly mean towards her and did not deserve to be attacked yesterday.
Bonnie came in to the Kitchen, in my own fucking house and confronted me on a vulnerable situation in an abrasive and arbitrary manner. She victimized herself in a situation of sexual abuse of another and blamed me and my lover and other friends for neglecting her in this situation and judged the way we are handling it. Not to mention she tried to make comparisons to the way she is acting in this Sham situation to justify her position (even though its clear now that her actions proceeding that confrontation was based off of a personal grudge against Sham rather than her friendship to Amali). I told her several times that I was uncomfortable talking to her about this, yet she proceeded to attack me while I was in the middle of cleaning my kitchen. I tried so hard to keep myself from not snapping at her, until she compared me to Matt, a person who's aiding and abetting a fucking rapist because he cant open his fucking eyes and come to terms with the fact that his friend is a sexual deviant. This was extremely triggering and after being yelled at and spoken to in a confronting manner in that ear piercing winey fucking voice, I lost my shit. I yelled at her and yes I said, "When something isn't fucking rainbows and butterflies you shut down and can't be supportive and/or handle it." Then, in true selfish bonnie fashion, she began to cry and tell me that I was "being mean" and victimized her. At that point I brought up the situation I mentioned in the beginning and all she had to say is "because I'm a person who has feelings? Oh my god?" as the water works almost flooded our house and she ran out of the room. To be honest, I'm kind of hurt that no one came to see if I was alright after that situation but because Bonnie is a four year old little girl trapped in an twenty year old body, she was able to receive all the pity in the situation.
I need people to also know that as far as Bonnie and I go, I no longer want anything to do with her. Any doubts I had about our friendship are gone because she is ultimately dead to me. She is disrespectful, immature, selfish, and narcissistic not to mention completely fucking irritating in every single way. She can shove a fucking cupcake wrapped in all the broken guitar strings she makes me fix up her fucking ass. Fuck Bonnie, fuck stupid fucking kinder-anarchists who victimize themselves in situations of rape. Fuck you Bonnie, fuck you Jami, fuck you Cassie. You can all go cry yourselves into your fucking graves.
All right, that’s all. I love you. Thanks for letting me vent.
Love, Travis
Bonnie came in to the Kitchen, in my own fucking house and confronted me on a vulnerable situation in an abrasive and arbitrary manner. She victimized herself in a situation of sexual abuse of another and blamed me and my lover and other friends for neglecting her in this situation and judged the way we are handling it. Not to mention she tried to make comparisons to the way she is acting in this Sham situation to justify her position (even though its clear now that her actions proceeding that confrontation was based off of a personal grudge against Sham rather than her friendship to Amali). I told her several times that I was uncomfortable talking to her about this, yet she proceeded to attack me while I was in the middle of cleaning my kitchen. I tried so hard to keep myself from not snapping at her, until she compared me to Matt, a person who's aiding and abetting a fucking rapist because he cant open his fucking eyes and come to terms with the fact that his friend is a sexual deviant. This was extremely triggering and after being yelled at and spoken to in a confronting manner in that ear piercing winey fucking voice, I lost my shit. I yelled at her and yes I said, "When something isn't fucking rainbows and butterflies you shut down and can't be supportive and/or handle it." Then, in true selfish bonnie fashion, she began to cry and tell me that I was "being mean" and victimized her. At that point I brought up the situation I mentioned in the beginning and all she had to say is "because I'm a person who has feelings? Oh my god?" as the water works almost flooded our house and she ran out of the room. To be honest, I'm kind of hurt that no one came to see if I was alright after that situation but because Bonnie is a four year old little girl trapped in an twenty year old body, she was able to receive all the pity in the situation.
I need people to also know that as far as Bonnie and I go, I no longer want anything to do with her. Any doubts I had about our friendship are gone because she is ultimately dead to me. She is disrespectful, immature, selfish, and narcissistic not to mention completely fucking irritating in every single way. She can shove a fucking cupcake wrapped in all the broken guitar strings she makes me fix up her fucking ass. Fuck Bonnie, fuck stupid fucking kinder-anarchists who victimize themselves in situations of rape. Fuck you Bonnie, fuck you Jami, fuck you Cassie. You can all go cry yourselves into your fucking graves.
All right, that’s all. I love you. Thanks for letting me vent.
Love, Travis