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So I can't sleep...I am in Va visiting my mom...but my mind is racing away...so far far away...I have met someone...someone who I have never met before I am scared but yet intrigued at the same time...He tells me stuff that I want to hear...but I doubt it is even true...I think I want to be with him...Or I think not...He has me in the weird state of mind...I want him...but I don't...I wonder if I myself am going crazy...I need to stop watching movies...There is a force that draws me to him...why this is I don't know...Does he really like me like he says or his he just messed up in the head...is he playing mind games with me...I don't trust anyone...you never know who people really are...he can read me...that is fucking scary...is this my secret admire...fun if it is...why do I meet weird people...all the time...this internet shit has gotta stop...for real...My mom is crushing ice...she is going crazy with eating ice...I wanted to talk to him today...I like him a lot...what the fuck am I saying it has been 3 days since we have met...what the fuck am I doing...Happy or Sad...Up or Down...Leaving or Staying...He knows to much...it is time to shut him off...I can't hear you...the volume is turned down...mute