*Deep breath*
Sitting in Brandon's apartment, trying to steel myself for returning to the host family's place and resuming my role as The Friendly Waegook.
The thing that I loved most about this summer vacation was the feeling of independence I had - for the first time in months, I was once again in control of my life. Don't get me wrong - I love the host family, but I also love being able to choose what I eat and having privacy and not having to be pleasant around the freaking clock. In short, I will miss being an adult.
I didn't anticipate being as resentful as I am about spending these last four months in the homestay instead of with Brandon. He and I will see each other on the weekends, but I'll still have to worry about whether or not I'm offending the host family by choosing to spend time with him over them. However, I know that the months will go quickly and that we'll be in North Carolina celebrating Christmas before I know it. We'll also get a chance to visit Japan in October, which is something that I'm hugely looking forward to.
It's just...I don't know, I guess that I'm bad at waiting for things.
The thing that I loved most about this summer vacation was the feeling of independence I had - for the first time in months, I was once again in control of my life. Don't get me wrong - I love the host family, but I also love being able to choose what I eat and having privacy and not having to be pleasant around the freaking clock. In short, I will miss being an adult.
I didn't anticipate being as resentful as I am about spending these last four months in the homestay instead of with Brandon. He and I will see each other on the weekends, but I'll still have to worry about whether or not I'm offending the host family by choosing to spend time with him over them. However, I know that the months will go quickly and that we'll be in North Carolina celebrating Christmas before I know it. We'll also get a chance to visit Japan in October, which is something that I'm hugely looking forward to.
It's just...I don't know, I guess that I'm bad at waiting for things.