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i feel really lonely right now. i just finished readin alice in wonderland for the 3rd time. i listened to the rufio cd. im trying to eat some soup and hating it. im trying to find a way to see the producers while its in miami. im looking in the mirror, and seeing that empty face. im sitting online wishing some one would come on i wanted to talk to. ive been in a bad mood since two. i ignored david becuase he brought up the other night. i want a smoothie real bad, but leaving my room is horrible. i want to be a literature/ journalism major but i cant bring myself to it. i want to spend next yr at trinity college but don't have the money. i want to be pretty and skinny and personable and cute. no fuck that, i want that real classic beauty, like the old actresses, the type so classy no one can touch you. i want a boy to love me enough to sacrifice everything and actually put something on line for me. not this college bullshit of hooking up and hanging out. i want to leave tallahasse and never come back. i ate some of liddys oatmeal. i want someone to call to just to remind me they love me, and i want them to really love me. i want friends who understand and lovers who dont care. i want to spend my years writing stories people hate to admit they love and meeting forgettable people who will never forget me. \
..i want to be that tragic hero, i want to be the epic adventurer
..i want to be that tragic hero, i want to be the epic adventurer