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Well, I haven't been on line in a while, so I think I'll update.
I told my Mom that I was moving. She's okay with it, well as okay as she can be. When I was telling her, I just broke down, and cried my fucking eyes out. We both did for a while. She stil crys every time she looks at me, or I talk to her. But the conversation we had about it the night I told her was a really good one overall. She told me a lot of things that I seriously needed to hear from her. Just things that she has either never said to me, or hasn't said in a really long time. I told her some things to, that was way overdue as well. It was great, Even though it hurts like hell. She keeps asking my is it because of certan things, like Did she say something about me, or is it because of my brother, or was it because I feel like I'm being pushed out. It's nothing like that at all, it's just something that I need to do. My Mom told me today as we were hugging that I was her favorite person in the whole world. That nearly killed me. She says she's going to help me with the move, but I'm going to try and not let her do that much at all, cause I'm already a huge burdon on her, and she doesn't have the money to help me. I'm not taking hardly anything with me. I still don't know what the shit I'm going to take but not very much. My mom wants me to take a fucking air plane out there cause I sleep deep, and she thinks that people will fuck with me, or kill me on a bus. But that isn't going to happen, and I am taking a bus. It's the cheepest thing, and that's the only way that I'm going to be able to make it out there. I'm actually fucking going to do this guys. I'm so stoked. I can't talk to much abut this right now, It's still kinda overwhelming to me still. So I'll talk to you another time. I'm OUT!
I told my Mom that I was moving. She's okay with it, well as okay as she can be. When I was telling her, I just broke down, and cried my fucking eyes out. We both did for a while. She stil crys every time she looks at me, or I talk to her. But the conversation we had about it the night I told her was a really good one overall. She told me a lot of things that I seriously needed to hear from her. Just things that she has either never said to me, or hasn't said in a really long time. I told her some things to, that was way overdue as well. It was great, Even though it hurts like hell. She keeps asking my is it because of certan things, like Did she say something about me, or is it because of my brother, or was it because I feel like I'm being pushed out. It's nothing like that at all, it's just something that I need to do. My Mom told me today as we were hugging that I was her favorite person in the whole world. That nearly killed me. She says she's going to help me with the move, but I'm going to try and not let her do that much at all, cause I'm already a huge burdon on her, and she doesn't have the money to help me. I'm not taking hardly anything with me. I still don't know what the shit I'm going to take but not very much. My mom wants me to take a fucking air plane out there cause I sleep deep, and she thinks that people will fuck with me, or kill me on a bus. But that isn't going to happen, and I am taking a bus. It's the cheepest thing, and that's the only way that I'm going to be able to make it out there. I'm actually fucking going to do this guys. I'm so stoked. I can't talk to much abut this right now, It's still kinda overwhelming to me still. So I'll talk to you another time. I'm OUT!