Sigh

[tksolway]

I can't sleep tonight. I'm lonely, which isn't something new. But I've been thinking of stuff lately. Everyone I know who I graduated with, is either in a long term relationship. Or even getting married, hell some of them have kids. I've never even had a stable relationship before. I tried going out with Carolina, that was just a mess. Then, I've been trying to go out with Halina, and we all know how well that is working. Yay me. What is it about me that makes people not want to be around me. Hell I tried asking out this girl in class, and she tried to tell me she was a les, just so she wouldn't hurt my feelings or something. She's not a les, I know enough gay guys and lesbians, to be able to tell when someone is lying about it. I tried to get this other girl to do some essay work together, she won't ever return my emails. I feel like I'm goign to be one of those old men who dies alone. Never have any children, or even a wife. I mean, am I ugly, I never thought I was. Geez someone tell me. Mabye, Dana is right, mabye I just have a vile personality. Mabye I just get to be the guy who stands next to the rest of society looking in.