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what a week it's been of up and down moods. i really wish i didn't have anything to do this week because all of my down days seemed to be those that i had something to do on...like i didnt feel all that great on mon/wed/fri and those are my 3 class days. things arent lookin too hot in my near future if i keep up this outlook on stuff. i just wish i could carpe diem and do something with it, instead of frowning upon the day.
day by day i'm starting to really dislike what i wanna do with my life. and this totally sucks...and i mean REALLY REALLY sucks...because i have never pictured myself majoring in anything else, since i didn't want to major in anything else. math is my one academic hobby and should i lose interest in it then i might as well screw my education since there won't be anything for me to choose from. i just remember all those times last year when people would tell me what their major was (like marketing, CS, economics...) and i was so happy that i was doing math because EVERY other one sounded bad. now i dont know how to react. should i do something like pottery, basket weaving, or interior design? those even sound better than what wnec offers, even though i'd never try em!
i'm lost. its a really confusing time for me and, being the end of the semester (almost), i really should take advantage of this opportunity to explore my other possiblities. because i know that if i relax winter break and don't change my mood about math, i may last a week or two in january before i start feeling like this again. that's not gonna work. this whole college thing is burning me out and i hardly have time to do the things i enjoy anymore. i'm so different from the person i was in high school, yet i am SO similar emotionally. what i do know is that i'm not gonna be working this christmas break like i did last year. its not that i didnt like it, but this year i gotta veg out. i'm prob gonna travel with my dad when he goes out west for business - and i'll just kick back at a hotel or drive around the city. i am so pumped for that month off. but at least i have a week off coming up for thanksgiving.
thank god.
day by day i'm starting to really dislike what i wanna do with my life. and this totally sucks...and i mean REALLY REALLY sucks...because i have never pictured myself majoring in anything else, since i didn't want to major in anything else. math is my one academic hobby and should i lose interest in it then i might as well screw my education since there won't be anything for me to choose from. i just remember all those times last year when people would tell me what their major was (like marketing, CS, economics...) and i was so happy that i was doing math because EVERY other one sounded bad. now i dont know how to react. should i do something like pottery, basket weaving, or interior design? those even sound better than what wnec offers, even though i'd never try em!
i'm lost. its a really confusing time for me and, being the end of the semester (almost), i really should take advantage of this opportunity to explore my other possiblities. because i know that if i relax winter break and don't change my mood about math, i may last a week or two in january before i start feeling like this again. that's not gonna work. this whole college thing is burning me out and i hardly have time to do the things i enjoy anymore. i'm so different from the person i was in high school, yet i am SO similar emotionally. what i do know is that i'm not gonna be working this christmas break like i did last year. its not that i didnt like it, but this year i gotta veg out. i'm prob gonna travel with my dad when he goes out west for business - and i'll just kick back at a hotel or drive around the city. i am so pumped for that month off. but at least i have a week off coming up for thanksgiving.
thank god.