gettin it out of the system....
so i was sitting on the bus, today reliving this year in my mind, so much shit has happened i would explain it all but wow its just way to much, not a sigle person knows everything............u may be saying u do but honestly i was thinkin about everyone who could know everything, the only 2 people who come close are abi and hinna i think, n even they dont know everything, but what ever thats besides the point, this one year wow soo much has happened, the biggest change probably has been family life, i mean ill be honest my dad has always been a bastard i know he hates me n all, what ever thats fine, i've gotten soo many threats by his ass to throw me out on the street that i just dont give a fuck, i mean if he does that(which im sure he would love to do)then so be it, it will get me the hell outa that fucked up house......the house with the family i no longer feel a part of, i never did, fine waht ever, hey i still got friends rite....? well thats another thing, im loosing friends, some i want to lose, others are just slowly slipping away, i mean im making some more friends like ariel for example, she is prob the coolest person ever n is super nice, but yeah lets see im slowly losing friends, i mean i still got friends from bds n stuff, but i never see them, ill tell ya hanging out with jacob last weekend was prob the most fun n most happy i've been in a while, i mean its always that way with friends that u've known for that long, i've known him for 13 years, wow long time, same with cooper, my first friend i ever had, but he is all the way at woodberry, he might come to gds next year he might not, im praying everyday he does, i remember how shitty i was feelin the night before our 8th grade graduation at bds, bc me n him would be splitting off n goin our seperate ways, i really dont know why im thinkin of all these thigns, its just wow i feel so empty rite now, its like i dont have ne one who i can honestly say cares about me, n for those of u who are thinking right now this is some attempt to get pitty just stop reading rite now, u obviously dont know me at all n dont mean much to me, sorry thats just the way it is, call me a bastard for it if u want i really could care less.....ahh so yeah i mean i know i've got freinds n stuff who do care for me, like cooper n jacob, i got my cousins also, some of them i gettin further away from, but i mean its not terrible or anything eh idk what im trying to say, I guess ill just stop here, schools over that’s always a good thing rite, yeah just as long as I can get the fuck outa this place, got some planning to do, well if u happened to make it this far in reading this thanks for actually knowing who I am…….
-Moody
-Moody