Psalm 17:8
I am attending USC for graduate school this fall. Wow, never thought I'd say that. I am proud of my accomplishment; however, I am still feeling the gamut of emotions. The size of my looming student loan debt still literally makes my head spin, but I have a plan. It's a known fact that plans change, but I find comfort in knowing I have a way to try to make this work (financially). I am confident in this: USC is where I should be. Whenever I feel like I am throwing myself off of a cliff that is just a little too high to make it safely into the water below, I stop, take a breath, and remember how I felt the day I submitted my "intent to enroll." I felt utterly calm, assured, confident, thrilled...and most of all content. When I consider the next 2 years of my life and the infinite potential available at USC and in Los Angeles, I feel completely at ease about my decision. I do not think I have ever felt this relaxed and at peace after making such an important decision....well, I have never actually made such an important decision. Ha. But, to sum it all up: I am ready.
Saying goodbye to San Diego, SDSU, and everyone who has been a significant part of my life during college has been an odd process. I guess it still doesn't feel final since I have some furniture left at my house down there that must be moved back to Fallbrook this weekend. It all ended so slowly--a gradual easing away from my friends, my alma mater, and the best 4 years of my life thus far. I suppose I had anticipated a big production, fireworks, tears, late nights of reminiscing.....instead, just a quick wave goodbye, fare thee well, until we meet again, and that was all. Somewhat anticlimactic, yet fitting. I believe the reason for this, once again, is simply put as: I am ready.
Now, there is plenty that I am not ready for in these next 2, 10, or 50 years of my life, but if there is one thing I have learned in my 22 short years of life on this earth: God does have a plan. Lately I am focusing on keeping in mind that, although I am a self-proclaimed obsessive "planner", His plan for my life is greater than any one I could create, and He will lead me to where I am supposed to be. No matter who my friends are, what my financial situation is, where I live, where I work, or where I attend school, He is the one constant. I haven't written about my faith on here, yet. It's always been extremely important in my life, but, as I am getting older, I am reminded how it should be at the forefront...constantly. Remembering the importance of putting God first in my life, with the reminder that He is always with me: I am always ready.
Saying goodbye to San Diego, SDSU, and everyone who has been a significant part of my life during college has been an odd process. I guess it still doesn't feel final since I have some furniture left at my house down there that must be moved back to Fallbrook this weekend. It all ended so slowly--a gradual easing away from my friends, my alma mater, and the best 4 years of my life thus far. I suppose I had anticipated a big production, fireworks, tears, late nights of reminiscing.....instead, just a quick wave goodbye, fare thee well, until we meet again, and that was all. Somewhat anticlimactic, yet fitting. I believe the reason for this, once again, is simply put as: I am ready.
Now, there is plenty that I am not ready for in these next 2, 10, or 50 years of my life, but if there is one thing I have learned in my 22 short years of life on this earth: God does have a plan. Lately I am focusing on keeping in mind that, although I am a self-proclaimed obsessive "planner", His plan for my life is greater than any one I could create, and He will lead me to where I am supposed to be. No matter who my friends are, what my financial situation is, where I live, where I work, or where I attend school, He is the one constant. I haven't written about my faith on here, yet. It's always been extremely important in my life, but, as I am getting older, I am reminded how it should be at the forefront...constantly. Remembering the importance of putting God first in my life, with the reminder that He is always with me: I am always ready.