Another day another chance.
Again….Thank god for LJ. Please don’t let me abuse this place.
Well today was Ok for the most part. The kids were sweet and things went well here at the office. Though it was a bit odd…I had received a call from a teacher asking me if I could give one of his students some papers. And as a joke he told that student I would also give them a kiss. I was a bit taken back by it and honestly thought nothing of it after that. Mind you, the child was in kindergarten and the teacher in question is probably one of the biggest pervert here at this school. I know that since the children are far too young to understand his humor they laugh anyway and think hes being silly. And don’t worry about the whole pedophile thing. If anything it’s the female members of this staff that should worry more.
But back to the story, I went to the back and got the papers as I was asked. I went back out to the front desk and saw that the child had come in and was waiting. A very sweet looking little boy looked up at me and smiled so I decided to play a joke on him and making a very awkward kissy face. I leaned in and kissed him on the cheek….and all he did was laugh and smile.
In that moment…I began to ask myself…are people really born gay? I cant really ask myself that question because at one point I did have a crush on a girl and though it was only once I did realized that though I am gay, I guess some part of me does still think the idea of getting married to a lovely young lady. Its more a far fetched fantasy then anything else. *smiles and rubs my ring finger* I have plans for this finger…and they involve a certain wolf. *chuckles*
But after that kid left, I smiled and wondered if he would turn out to be strait and one of those people who tolerated everything and loved everything as well. I cant tell you how good it felt to think that. I want these kids to grow up happy and with understanding in their hearts.
Well, no matter what happens to him I know that as long as he’s here he’s gonna get nothing but love. *chuckles* My school is big on that.
Well, a sad thing happened today. My air card decided to die on me. It feel apart just as I was about to use it and by the looks of how it did…I won't be able to get it fixed. I depended a lot on that thing. It allowed me that precious space of time between the last hour of work and before I got home. A time to which Tremor was most likely on and I could talk to him and get what I needed to keep smiling through my week. But I won't get too down about it, I'm fine with it for now. But I know when I hit that little rough patch between here and when I get my new air card…I'm gonna be pulling out my hair and clawing at the walls. *sighs* I need my weekly dose of my wolf or else by the weekend I'm fuming mad and wanting to kill something. *chuckles* Tremor…you make my whole world…brighter.
*sits down* Things can go one of two ways from here. They can completely go down the drain or get that much better. Regardless of what happens….as long as I got my wolf and I have the will to move on. I'm gonna take whatever life throws at me and work with it.
I mean hey, its my life after all. I only get one chance at it so I might as well make the best of it.
I lost my air card, just means I'm gonna have to work a little harder to make sure Tremor knows I'm their for him. I may miss a few chance to talk to him along the way but what couple has the ability to communicate 24/7? Gaps do occur and I just have to learn to work with them. But I know that when I do get my chance to spend some time with Tremor, their will be little talking and a lot more hugging. *chuckles* He may think otherwise but I'm gonna do my best to sneak every chance possible. ^ ^
Thanks Guys, for reading this and giving me your words in Return. I cant thank you enough.
And to you Sweetheart, I love you. Thank you for being my safe harbor in the storm.
Well today was Ok for the most part. The kids were sweet and things went well here at the office. Though it was a bit odd…I had received a call from a teacher asking me if I could give one of his students some papers. And as a joke he told that student I would also give them a kiss. I was a bit taken back by it and honestly thought nothing of it after that. Mind you, the child was in kindergarten and the teacher in question is probably one of the biggest pervert here at this school. I know that since the children are far too young to understand his humor they laugh anyway and think hes being silly. And don’t worry about the whole pedophile thing. If anything it’s the female members of this staff that should worry more.
But back to the story, I went to the back and got the papers as I was asked. I went back out to the front desk and saw that the child had come in and was waiting. A very sweet looking little boy looked up at me and smiled so I decided to play a joke on him and making a very awkward kissy face. I leaned in and kissed him on the cheek….and all he did was laugh and smile.
In that moment…I began to ask myself…are people really born gay? I cant really ask myself that question because at one point I did have a crush on a girl and though it was only once I did realized that though I am gay, I guess some part of me does still think the idea of getting married to a lovely young lady. Its more a far fetched fantasy then anything else. *smiles and rubs my ring finger* I have plans for this finger…and they involve a certain wolf. *chuckles*
But after that kid left, I smiled and wondered if he would turn out to be strait and one of those people who tolerated everything and loved everything as well. I cant tell you how good it felt to think that. I want these kids to grow up happy and with understanding in their hearts.
Well, no matter what happens to him I know that as long as he’s here he’s gonna get nothing but love. *chuckles* My school is big on that.
Well, a sad thing happened today. My air card decided to die on me. It feel apart just as I was about to use it and by the looks of how it did…I won't be able to get it fixed. I depended a lot on that thing. It allowed me that precious space of time between the last hour of work and before I got home. A time to which Tremor was most likely on and I could talk to him and get what I needed to keep smiling through my week. But I won't get too down about it, I'm fine with it for now. But I know when I hit that little rough patch between here and when I get my new air card…I'm gonna be pulling out my hair and clawing at the walls. *sighs* I need my weekly dose of my wolf or else by the weekend I'm fuming mad and wanting to kill something. *chuckles* Tremor…you make my whole world…brighter.
*sits down* Things can go one of two ways from here. They can completely go down the drain or get that much better. Regardless of what happens….as long as I got my wolf and I have the will to move on. I'm gonna take whatever life throws at me and work with it.
I mean hey, its my life after all. I only get one chance at it so I might as well make the best of it.
I lost my air card, just means I'm gonna have to work a little harder to make sure Tremor knows I'm their for him. I may miss a few chance to talk to him along the way but what couple has the ability to communicate 24/7? Gaps do occur and I just have to learn to work with them. But I know that when I do get my chance to spend some time with Tremor, their will be little talking and a lot more hugging. *chuckles* He may think otherwise but I'm gonna do my best to sneak every chance possible. ^ ^
Thanks Guys, for reading this and giving me your words in Return. I cant thank you enough.
And to you Sweetheart, I love you. Thank you for being my safe harbor in the storm.