Its another Thursday
Hey guys,
TK here with just another installment in my journal.
Things are good for me here. I'm at work right now and it’s around 8am. Nothings happened so far and I’m grateful for that. Id rather have a dull morning then one full of panic any day. I say this because working at a school you kind ‘a encounter stuff early in the morning that most people shouldn’t experience during any part of the day*chuckles*
So far it’s been an OK week (it’s now Thursday for me) and it’s been good for the most part. Of course I’m still missing Tremor allot, but we still talk on the phone so I’m happy to have that. I heard that he's having a real good time so I’m a happy Orca.
I’ve been thinking allot about the friends I’ve managed to stay in touch with in some way or another. Allot of them are just some of the coolest people you could ever meet. And then I go to thinking about myself. Now that I really think about it….I’m a boring person.
Now don’t get me wrong, that’s not an entirely bad thing. But living on an island and being raise the way I was…it kind makes for a dull person really. I mean my personality type is the stay at home dad as it were.
I like being at home taking care of things while my other half is out working. And really…I do like that idea for a lifestyle….but honestly…is it realistic?
With how expensive everything is getting now or days (Gas….) its hard to be a stay at home anything. Though the idea of spending my entire day taking care of the kids (Three girls four boys) to be one of the best and closest ideas to my hearts deepest desires. Its not one that’s likely to happen for quite some time.
I'm gonna be 23 in august….its a little ways away but its still coming. And really…I haven’t done anything major in my life. Sure I’ve done some things worth noting…but nothing that I feel is really worth telling your kids about ya know?
I know that you guys think I’m an Ok dude. But Ok can only take you so far.
So….I’m gonna take my 20’something self and set up a life plan as it were.
*smirks* One of them being to get a certain wolf to “settle” down with me. But I can give that one allot of time*grins* He’s the kinda guy…at least in my opinion :P…that’s worth waiting for. *chuckles* And I’m still young…a got a lifetime of love to give…and I want him to be the one to receive it. Because honestly…my heart tells me he deserve every last bit of it.
The rest of my life plan basically consists of….
1)Getting in better shape (Obvious right?)
2)Going to a gay night club at least once (Oh we have those here…but not even in a hazmat suit will I go into those places.)
3)learn to sing and play the guitar
4)be a better artist (duh)
5)Finally….just not have any regrets about the life in living. Because honestly…theirs at least one popping up every day.
6)Get a job that pays well and I can tolerate, because finding a job that pays well and that you love isn’t as likely.
Short right? But with any life plan…you add onto it as you go along and make changes where necessary. Nothing is set in stone, so expecting this plan to stay the same is a bit naïve.
I'm still growing…still changing as a person and as an artist. Who knows…maybe by next year I’ll be using a completely different style all together. *smiles* I wonder what next January will be like. Where will we be…because though a year in thought isn’t a long time, its still enough time for our entire lives to change. To loose and to gain everything. To be alone or complete.
But I already know where I’ll be next year with him….holding his hand while he holds mine. I have faith in that and I can trust that for whatever were put thought…well handle it with honesty and care. He the older more experience man…and I the still young and hopeful guy. It’s a nice balance…age and wisdom…with youth and optimism. *sighs*
And one can’t help but be optimistic with as many people to love as I have.
Friends, family, and Tremor…I have what I need…now all that’s left is to make the best of it. You can’t ask for more then what you have…because life can only give you the bare essentials. It wouldn’t be fare for it to give you more…because that’s all anyone gets.
I know that some of you are thinking of people who are extremely fortunate…but for those people…they have the most to loose. Its equivalent exchange in the cruelest fashion really. One may have it all but one can also loose it all. Life either changes over time…or the second your eyes close and open. Your world is gone…and things changed…what matters at that point, is what you do with what you have left.
*chuckles* Sorry guy, I know I’m hitting a sad note on that last one but I just write what’s in my heart. And getting this stuff out helps me.
For whatever life has…for whatever plans I make that follow or fall through. I have been one of the fortunate ones. I'm in love, have a family that cares about me, and better friends then any one could ask for.*smiles*
All of you take care…and here…*gives you a small piece of my warmth* I’ve got allot of it…I might as well give you some right?
From the big smiling Orca,
TK
TK here with just another installment in my journal.
Things are good for me here. I'm at work right now and it’s around 8am. Nothings happened so far and I’m grateful for that. Id rather have a dull morning then one full of panic any day. I say this because working at a school you kind ‘a encounter stuff early in the morning that most people shouldn’t experience during any part of the day*chuckles*
So far it’s been an OK week (it’s now Thursday for me) and it’s been good for the most part. Of course I’m still missing Tremor allot, but we still talk on the phone so I’m happy to have that. I heard that he's having a real good time so I’m a happy Orca.
I’ve been thinking allot about the friends I’ve managed to stay in touch with in some way or another. Allot of them are just some of the coolest people you could ever meet. And then I go to thinking about myself. Now that I really think about it….I’m a boring person.
Now don’t get me wrong, that’s not an entirely bad thing. But living on an island and being raise the way I was…it kind makes for a dull person really. I mean my personality type is the stay at home dad as it were.
I like being at home taking care of things while my other half is out working. And really…I do like that idea for a lifestyle….but honestly…is it realistic?
With how expensive everything is getting now or days (Gas….) its hard to be a stay at home anything. Though the idea of spending my entire day taking care of the kids (Three girls four boys) to be one of the best and closest ideas to my hearts deepest desires. Its not one that’s likely to happen for quite some time.
I'm gonna be 23 in august….its a little ways away but its still coming. And really…I haven’t done anything major in my life. Sure I’ve done some things worth noting…but nothing that I feel is really worth telling your kids about ya know?
I know that you guys think I’m an Ok dude. But Ok can only take you so far.
So….I’m gonna take my 20’something self and set up a life plan as it were.
*smirks* One of them being to get a certain wolf to “settle” down with me. But I can give that one allot of time*grins* He’s the kinda guy…at least in my opinion :P…that’s worth waiting for. *chuckles* And I’m still young…a got a lifetime of love to give…and I want him to be the one to receive it. Because honestly…my heart tells me he deserve every last bit of it.
The rest of my life plan basically consists of….
1)Getting in better shape (Obvious right?)
2)Going to a gay night club at least once (Oh we have those here…but not even in a hazmat suit will I go into those places.)
3)learn to sing and play the guitar
4)be a better artist (duh)
5)Finally….just not have any regrets about the life in living. Because honestly…theirs at least one popping up every day.
6)Get a job that pays well and I can tolerate, because finding a job that pays well and that you love isn’t as likely.
Short right? But with any life plan…you add onto it as you go along and make changes where necessary. Nothing is set in stone, so expecting this plan to stay the same is a bit naïve.
I'm still growing…still changing as a person and as an artist. Who knows…maybe by next year I’ll be using a completely different style all together. *smiles* I wonder what next January will be like. Where will we be…because though a year in thought isn’t a long time, its still enough time for our entire lives to change. To loose and to gain everything. To be alone or complete.
But I already know where I’ll be next year with him….holding his hand while he holds mine. I have faith in that and I can trust that for whatever were put thought…well handle it with honesty and care. He the older more experience man…and I the still young and hopeful guy. It’s a nice balance…age and wisdom…with youth and optimism. *sighs*
And one can’t help but be optimistic with as many people to love as I have.
Friends, family, and Tremor…I have what I need…now all that’s left is to make the best of it. You can’t ask for more then what you have…because life can only give you the bare essentials. It wouldn’t be fare for it to give you more…because that’s all anyone gets.
I know that some of you are thinking of people who are extremely fortunate…but for those people…they have the most to loose. Its equivalent exchange in the cruelest fashion really. One may have it all but one can also loose it all. Life either changes over time…or the second your eyes close and open. Your world is gone…and things changed…what matters at that point, is what you do with what you have left.
*chuckles* Sorry guy, I know I’m hitting a sad note on that last one but I just write what’s in my heart. And getting this stuff out helps me.
For whatever life has…for whatever plans I make that follow or fall through. I have been one of the fortunate ones. I'm in love, have a family that cares about me, and better friends then any one could ask for.*smiles*
All of you take care…and here…*gives you a small piece of my warmth* I’ve got allot of it…I might as well give you some right?
From the big smiling Orca,
TK