God knows what's best

[tjber]

I got what I prayed fer. The right thing to happen. prayed fiercly for it, woo did it happen fiercly. in a GOOD way. My heart is broken (in the right way) but my soul is alive and vibrant. Suddenly the future looks so much better. It had to happen this way. I should have taken the first step... but I didn't. she stepped up and took it... and I've never been more proud of her in my life. and I told her that, I hope she keeps that in mind. she hasn't hurt me. I'm not gonna go all emo depressed. For once, I really did find a girl who was "proven." I just messed it up. so I have to let her go. and I will. thankyou Lord, for being who you are, for speaking to me. for talking to me. for bringing me back to you. for slapping me silly. funny, most people would say, "damn boy, that sucks" not me. this is totally God being good to me. not letting me leave him. He'll keep me and preserve me in his time and way. so I will follow his will. Let him lead me in life. and if he brings her back into my life later on down the road, in the right way... totally. She's worth every ounce that she believe's her self to be overweight in gold... that pearl in the field. but I can't take that pearl home yet, so I will take measures to be a person who can.
Timber.
PS I serriously have NO hard feelings towards her, she's wonderful.