chris made me cry tonight

[tj2005girl]

me and chris don't get along and haven't since i let him go almost 5 years ago. but i read his journal and it made me think of that summer when i was with him before i meet matt.. i really did love him.. i can honestly say he was one of my frist real loves.. but things didn't work out because of the distance. i felt bad about it then and i do today.. but that summer was great..i know there is a viedo somewhere of us on the four of july that year. i took part of it.. i think i can't remeber.. i know i almost got hit with a rocket thingy.. singed my jeans..
i miss those days i miss jewels and rach.. i see rach at walmart sometimes... i found jewels on myspace.... but i don't see them enough to get that relationship back... i think i am going to bed now.. i am sad now.. but happy at the same time... so now i will kiss my hubby good night and check on my little boy

good night all

p.s chris your not worthless you will find someone they will make you happy again. some things just don't work out.. i know you hate me but just think oneday you will find that someone you just have to be watching for her