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[tizzzle]

I'm freaking out. I have applications due for internships today, Monday, and Tuesday. One of the professors who said he would write a recommendation for me has yet to turn them in. I've e-mailed him 5 times in the past week. It's really shitty of him. I'm so fucked. I can't even turn in one of my applications until he gives me the fucking letter. I'm going to be stuck with no job this summer. I e-mailed him really early about these letters, it took him two weeks to respond to the first one, thats why there's so much pressure now about the deadlines. I'm really upset about this. If he wasn't going to get them to me on time, then why would he tell me that he would do it? I was really looking forward to hopefully getting one of these internships. And if I got rejected, well thats ok too. I would just have rather applied and gotten it in and put myself up in the game instead of just sit here and not know. I'm really pissed. I e-mailed once more. I hope he gets it. He probably just writes a generic letter for everyone who asks him. Thats fine, just put my fucking name on it and lets go!

I worked my ass off in that research team so that he would notice me and agree to writing these letters. It's really not fair. I could have half-assed it and been more happy then sitting here all upset because this asshole wouldn't write me the letter. Damnit. I am going to go break something

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